Your Bi-Polar Test Results

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florey stringer August 1, 2011 at 6:44 pm

I really think my husband is bipolar-I don’t know how I have survived 32 years of his ups and downs.

Glenn M September 21, 2011 at 12:10 pm

The good grace of God brought you through.

The Real Glenn M December 8, 2011 at 10:14 am

Don’t listen to this clown. You’ve done it all this time on your own, because you’re strong!

niki December 23, 2011 at 8:38 pm

I have to disagree, God brings you through all of your situations if you believe and ALLOW him to. How ignorant of a statement!

Charlie December 25, 2011 at 6:08 am

god does nothing we do things ourselves if you choose to believe that there is some higher power and that we all float to heaven when we die to live in eternal happiness that’s fine but keep it to your F***ING self im sick of hearing people say god will help me, if people want to how you say “find god” they will do it them selves don’t think for one second that your helping anyone apart from your own self righteousness just because you put a post on some website and to the real glenn m i respect your comment and it is more true than the rest of this religious bull****

Steve December 28, 2011 at 5:44 am

Pst……. God will help you whether you like it or not stupid!

poi January 7, 2012 at 10:22 am

Ok good for u @all of u who believe in god, but face the facts only YOU yourself get through things. Just because you believe doesn’t mean others do, @niki u seem to be the ignorant one to not know that…

Voughn January 11, 2012 at 12:07 am

@ Niki
God will not do everything for you. If you want something to happen, you have to do it yourself instead of praying to a being who may not even choose to help you. All of your situations is hardly the case here. Would, “Oh, God, Food Lion ran out of Cheerios! How will I lower my cholesterol now! Help me!” count as a ‘situation’? One last thing. Your last comment made me laugh. How ignorant of a statement, ha! Anyone who seems to believe God will carry them through life is ignorant to me. Please, I’m a preteen. Don’t hurt your own dignity.

Person A January 17, 2012 at 6:26 pm

Hahahahahahaha YES!!! Argue over something that doesn’t affect you at all!!! Either could care less about the other sides opinion but feels a retarded sense of obligation to convince the other is wrong about how they feel. Talking to walls will get you no where

emmmaaa February 13, 2012 at 5:05 am

To all of you, you’re are all being ignorant. I mean yes if you beleive in god thats your choice and he is what helps you though annd makes you stronger but if you dont believe in god you can do it for your selfs.
you need to all stop fighting over this because you’re all being too closed minded to see other peoples views and opinons. I mean what diffrence does it make if some one wants to have faith or not, thats their choice and people should respect that and it should be the same if you dont wanna believe.
If faith is what someone needs to get thourgh a posistion that they wouldnt normally let them have it because at the end of the day it doesnt matter because they’re happy

Karson February 5, 2012 at 12:41 am

Look at it this way… (this has nothing to do with the bipolar situation but hey) Atheist you believe when you die you just die and the others who believe in God believe that we’ll go to heaven right? Well if Atheist are right, we’ll all go no where right but if Christians are right and there is a God we’ll happily enter the Gates of Heaven! So believe and go no where or have the possibility of going to Heaven or not believing and end up no where or somewhere else besides heaven????? *think about it* I’d rather believe and have that possibility of going to a better place!

sue September 26, 2011 at 4:24 pm

I know my husband has to have bi polar.The question is how do you convince someone they need to get help.He has runined our marriage…5 affairs over 3 yrs..sexual addictions ,excessive gambling and spending where i have had to borrow money from my family to pay our bills,the last year his mood swings have wnt from being happy to very low points of not wanting to get out of bed.We hve a 3 yr old and he is very impatient with her and gets irritated very easily.He has had 5 different jobs in the last 5 yrs.All the hobbies he onced loved he has nothing to do with anymore. Right now we are seperated and have been for 5 weeks he is now living with another woman and they are in love.(or so he says) He has poor judgement in people as the woman he is with has been married 4 times with 5 kids and a terrible background.This past weekend he asked to come back and wanted to work on our marriage and get back to the way things use to be.. so i let him come back ..He couldnt stop talking and texting the other woman and he sat here and said it was normal to be bac with his wife and daughter and still talk to woman..I told him to leave once again and have called a lawyer to start a divorce. my only problem is my daughter and her safety.If he gets visitations rights will he be able to make good choices for her sake suffering from this disorder?? He has admitted it when he is depressed that he probally does have bi polar. Its just getting him to go..why doesnt hewant to feel better i just dont understand???I t has been a battle now for 3 yrs to figure out why he is doing all of this inappropiate behavior and continues when he knows it is wrong..I have went to websites and asked him all the ??’s and symptoms of bi polar and he has said Yes to all of the symptoms..i just wish he would get help for our daughters sake…

Sara December 3, 2011 at 6:53 pm

Wow. Why don’t you leave him? Now your daughter is going to grow up thinking this is how women should be treated. You are being an abusive parent exposing her to him. Affairs? Losing his jobs? Really? Why would you stay with such a loser? Wake up for heavens sake! This man is disrespecting you, walking all over you, using you and you ALLOW IT.

Please, for your child’s sake if you don’t care about yourself enough, leave this loser.

Lucy January 8, 2012 at 3:38 am

Sara – You have obviously NEVER been in a situation like her. No disrespect to you meant – i know you think you are giving good advice, but what you don’t realise is that it is never that easy. And making her feel guilty about her choices is just wrong. She is already desperate and doing what she can. Reading the story above from Sue – my mum has been through pretty much an identical situation – is still going through it, and its ripped our family apart. Mental illness, and mental health care proffessionals have a LOT to answer for. My dad has had support and help thrown at him. My mum, nothing. She has even been labelled neurotic. My dad even had an affair with one of his support workers! Thanks NHS, you really are brilliant.
Sue-If you see this, I wish you all the very best, from the bottom of my heart. You will get through this. You are not alone.

Anna January 28, 2012 at 5:49 pm

Just want to say that leaving him may not be the answer and just because he has a difficult time does not mean she needs to leave. I hate to say it your being abusive by bad mouthing something you know nothing about. You should keep these distasteful comments to yourself. How dare you call someone elses husband a loser and insult her. You have no manners and are just a very crass person.

Kristine February 11, 2012 at 12:30 pm

I love when some clueless, eyes closed person tells you just leave, it’s your fault, and you allow it speaks up without any knowlege whatsoever. it sounds so easy, just leave but it never is. Sara, when you have reached your fill ( only you will know) nothing anyone says will matter, nor will, what happens now, you will just simply be done. as for this brainless twit, it has nothing to do with you not caring for yourself, some people just care about others and everyone should be givin a chance. you can’t help your husband if he can’t see that he has a problem. how long it goes on depends on you and how long before you reach your fill

linda December 27, 2011 at 11:59 pm

hi, you should go to your doctor and ask what you can do, im 48 years old and only just been confirmed bi-polar, as i have gone through life thinking it was things happening in my life that was the reason for my behavour, but now know it was not, tell him its nothing to be ashamed of asking for help and it is better than destroying his relashionship with you and your daughter and believe me it will destroy everything i know i have been there. i now have medication and as long as i take it im ok i still get ratty on occasions but its nothing to the scale that i used to be. believe me its well worth asking for help!!!!

Anna January 28, 2012 at 5:44 pm

Sue don’t try do self diagnose your husband. There may be a million things wrong with him or going on with him. You straight up have to tell him he needs to go to the doctor for his depression, and make sure you go with. I know it may be harder than you think but it will help. Just because a man has an affair does not mean that he is bipolar, there maybe things going on between both of you that you need to go see a counselor. Now please know speaking from experience with a boyfriend who has pulled the same thing. He does not have bipolar disorder, he was just a confused man who coulnd’t decide between his wife and his girlfriend he loved the both of us. But like I said you can’t diagnose him you have to get him to a doctor, and if you have to leverage your child by saying you can’t see her unless you go have this counseling or go see this doctor and have one on hand and go with him. On the other hand he may just be going through a mid life crisis. Just keep in mind this is just a suggestion not trying to push an agenda on you.

sue September 26, 2011 at 4:31 pm

Wow 32 yrs i dont know how u did it..thinking my husband has it very badly but wont get help and it has been 3 yrs of hell for me… ive tried everything and now have given up and filing for a divorce..

HopeYouCanRead October 23, 2011 at 10:02 am

@ florey stringer, i admire your efforts and sacrifice to live humbly with one :)
@Sue, Thats why you get married sue, thru good and bad. Don’t blame all the issues on others, takes some blame, make some effort.
It is really easy to pass off your problems and say they are his problems.
Maybe your the downer in the relationship. pffft. Sounds like he is better off with out you anyhow.

kimberly October 25, 2011 at 8:03 am

@ HopeYouCanRead
What a ridiculous assertion! You know nothing of Sue’s plight, she has stood by her husband through the unimaginable pain he has inflicted on their young family and is only now choosing a better life for her and her child, it is sad that her husband is unwilling to do the same. Sometimes a partner can do everything right and it still isn’t enough, it’s a helpless feeling to find yourself in that position and my heart goes out to her and her child. I admire her strength in choosing to move forward without the man she loves but it must be done to ensure the happiness and safety of their child, being a mother no longer affords her the luxury of waiting for an unhealthy situation to miraculously get better. The fact is that her husband is ill and is making a choice to refuse treatment and rain toxicity down on his family, he is absolutely making a choice that is forcing her hand! Sue I wish you and your child the best, very soon you will gain a new outlook and an unimaginable sense of relief to be free of the oppressive confines that come with living in a relationship with a partner who refuses treatment and hides behind this very manageable illness.

Jack October 26, 2011 at 7:33 am

What a disgustingly short-sighted, spiteful and ignorant response. Did you even read the post you responded to or did you just feel like taking a shit on someone who doesn’t deserve it? A husband and father who repeatedly cheats on his family and won’t get a help for a problem he knows he has is the good guy here? Sounds like you are trying to justify some awful behaviour of your own.

wendy December 2, 2011 at 2:06 am

well said…

Jacob December 13, 2011 at 12:22 am

You’re response describes itself lol.

The spire January 10, 2012 at 10:26 pm

Just so you all know, (and I’m replying specifically here because this pertains to the comment above). My sister has a massive case of bi-polar, and I’ve just been diagnosed with it, and our family is pretty sure my little brother has it. Two things, although, Sue, you are a very strong person for putting up with him, you have some responsibility in the matter. My sister has had four kids, two from her husband, and two more from two other men inside the marriage. She constantly abuses his loyalty, and keeps pulling the same stunts. I would, and have advised him to break up with her, because of these acts, but he refuses. And because of this enabling, him, and his four kids are suffering. Enabling isn’t helping, regulars less if you take measures to stop him. They will always return to the way they are programmed with out medication. The only answer is leaving him, and being serious. He needs to help himself, you can do nothing. I’m sorry.

JJ December 28, 2011 at 3:38 am

Really?? In my opinion I feel you r way off in your comments to Sue.As they say”It takes two to tango”. But her husband may possibly be experiencing bipolar symptoms. Its going to be difficult but possible for the husband to start the process of improving his mental health.And of course finding a Psychiatrist who is both an excellant psychotherapist and adept with medical therapies. But the journey through diagnosing and treatment begins with the husband’s initiatves and desire for improvement.Good luck to all involved!

Hailz December 31, 2011 at 4:35 pm

No your wrong!!! Sue has done good and been through a lot. She has a child she needs to think of and to keep her safe!! So hopeyoucanread you will stay in a relationship if the other half beat you or put your child at risk i dont think so!!!
Sue I think you should go and talk to someone like a doctor on behalf of your husband.. OR you could say to your husband we will try and sort things out by marriage councillin..That way you can get to the root of all your problems and maybe he will understand more and see more of the stress it is causing you and your daughter. Your daughter needs her dad (a good dad) I have been through a lot with my dad and took a lot from it and it is destroying my life. I wish he would change and stop being so angry but he never listens and I have even been hit by him (not talking about a little smack either).. If he could change I would say try and give it an extra go but if he cant I would say leave as soon as because I dont want your daughter to go through what I have.. All the best!

ashley george December 3, 2011 at 2:49 pm

i am 20 years old and suffer from bipoler disorder and i left my wife and kids for a few months and i moved in with unther woman who i thought i loved i have two children and i have seveier mood swings if he wnts to talk to me he it seams to me he has bipoler x

Understanding December 30, 2011 at 8:07 am

Oh god ignore the HOPEYOUCANREAD comment. my dad has severe bipolar like that he used to beat me and my mom he was a horrible man…… off his medication. people do not understand unless they were in the situation. my father has changed, part of me never forgives him. but people CAN change. have hope

grangie November 7, 2011 at 3:48 am

Florey: I know how you survived. By hiding as you cried for yourself. Turning it into a smile when he entered. Serving him, cleaning up for him, shopping for him, acting like you wanted whatever he wanted to keep the peace. Never upsetting him. Making sure you didn’t care for yourself- looking ugly and depressed- so nobody would notice you. That way, he wouldn’t be madly crazy about you and smash your face against a wall. Or strip you of your new clothes and set them on fire. Forcing you to have sex as he lay day after day next to you and you counting to 66 so his deed would be done. Or was it the gun to the head, and the loving way he’d sit outside your work and wave to you. Following, cursing, manipulating you – after all you give so much love and care until you don’t. Grace of God? Shit on that. FEAR! Fear so great that it’s better to keep him close and know where he is than wonder where is he. Tell the truth! You know how you got through it. Forever knowing the only way you’ll ever get away is to be there the day he takes his last breath!

anonymous December 6, 2011 at 9:10 pm

It is amazing how you just perfectly described my parents’ marriage. As the child of a couple just like this, I urge anyone in this situation to get a divorce. I begged my mother to divorce my father since I was two years old and 23 years later she finally did. They are both much happier and can even talk to one another now. Your description is just spot on of what it is like to live with a bipolar man.

Sallie W December 16, 2011 at 10:14 am

@Grangie: this sounds like my life you are describing. My husband is Bipolar. We have been together for 11 years. I have been through so many up and downs and have even tried to leave by getting a job in another town but he followed me a few months later. The 5 months I had away from him were the best in such a long time. I love him to pieces but his mood swings are such an emotional drain on me. I try not to react when his is in his depressive states as I find he backs off a bit when there is no reaction.
So many times it is like I say one innocent thing and he hears a completley diffent question or comment, most of the time I don’t even say anything but he still hears things differently.
I certainly know the phrase til death do us part, co’s I’ll definitley be there when he draws his last breathe and know that I am truly free again.

sharmain February 18, 2012 at 8:16 am

Yoh ever thought of pressing charges. And just because he follow don’t mean you have to go. If you want out it’s ways out.

maiden November 29, 2011 at 11:59 pm

Years ago I divorced my husband of 17 years and right after our divorce, I was dianosed with mild bi-polar. I refused the diagnoses, and was told but two different psych professionals that I had to deal with my ex’s bipolar so much through the years that I never noticed my own… I believe that is how I survived that hellacious marriage…

April Ruiz August 5, 2011 at 7:35 am

I have taken myself to a doctor,psychiatrist and I have taken quizzes online and they all say I have bipolar but the professionals say since no1 in my family has it I can’t either, I’m super confused…

little ole me! August 27, 2011 at 1:40 am

April – I have been suffering for years with depression and social anxiety (on and off), made friends when ‘higher’ then lost them when ‘low’ – I thought struggling this way was normal. Eventually Dr’s put me on anti-depressive medication. BIG mistake – within 2 weeks I was back to the Dr completely wired and energetic. My family we’re worried about my behaviour. The Dr sent me home telling me that the meds were working as I appeared sooooooo happy.
Four weeks later, I was so high I wanted to climb every tree in sight, I was laughing at every little thing until my sides split – basically I was winding everyone up with my over-the-top idea’s, spending habits (I would buy random things I didn’t need, want or afford), my rapid, fleeting, overwhelming conversations with everyone around me and when I was left alone – I spoke to myself. I just couldn’t stop or shut up and I didn’t sleep or eat for over 72 hours.
It sounds scary and although I knew something wasn’t quite right, I LOVED IT! I felt great and everything in life had a purpose. I felt poetic and couldn’t take in the beauty of life fast enough.

To cut a rambling story short. I ended up being referred to a mental health team, they very quickly diagnosed me Bipolar I.

Like you, I don’t have any diagnosed family members with Bipolar……….although it can skip a generation – it can also be so mild that it might not raise a problem or concern with family members hence; they don’t report it to the Dr.

It can take a while for a diagnoses; looking back……I’ve been Bipolar for years, since I was 18. I have only just been diagnosed and I’m now 31! Years of suffering in silence. Oh well I got there in the end.

Anyway, I hope this helps a little – I just always thought it was normal to have suicide thoughts and extreme thoughts of creativity (Wanting to build a massive womb to sleep in for one – very odd I know).

Wishing you the best of luck April

Take care.

valessa September 7, 2011 at 8:49 am

Yes all too familier!..

As the same with my “doc” (more like PHD grad) he had asked if I had family sickness in my family. (Witch I didn’t like how he wasn’t direct on specifics on what) and since I said no othere then cholestorol. The matter and time was over and I was on my way!

What frustrates me is how can I really be convinced to really take the time to take me seriously even jus to say it really sisnt being bipolar… as simple is that…

Id would say in my high school years is when I know I had it hard… at 27 I jus know the same behavior is gettin old and high school is over… but yet… how is it soo difficults to understand something soo differant that has nothing to do with high school anymore… I sometimes vent in my head al day like a bad song I can’t get out of mind till matters are fix… how am I not thinkin or my own mother suspects I could be bipolar. Time will tell I guess… good day april! Cheers

claire November 19, 2011 at 2:09 pm

I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 after yrs of misdiagnosis .Even as young as 7 i felt different . At 12 had 1st experience of psychosis i told my mother who cried so i never said anything again went from depression to ups. I left home at 17 for good reason.I fell pregnant to an older man who was a thug.I put my baby 1st and left.At 20 diagnosed pn depression saw a pyschologist and the antidepressent caused me to walk in front of a bus believing that i would evaporate and amaze all the standers by instead they gasped and the bus breaked and i cant repeat what was said but i didnt care i was special. I was taken off the antidepressant with bp not suspected. Spent yrs from days in bed unable to function alternating with amazing energy and self belief .At 25 Married a wonderful man so when my moods became so erratic with ups which felt great to suicidal lows that at 27 after our 2nd child i went to the doctors again who diagnosed me with pn depression with prozac . After 3rd child at 30 i suffered a manic episode diagnosed as panic and anxiety.So then came many visits over the years to different doctors within the same practice hoping for an answer to the swings.I lost all faith in them until i made a visit to a doctor whose sister was bipolar i was 37 never heard of bipolar and i was complete wreck with depression my children and husband were suffering and the guilt was unbearable.After a rubbish cpn who left me a yr struggling on a low dose of meds and numerous emails by my gp to the cmht for a follow up i became manic with phycosis now i have a good cpn whos sorting my meds.Please dont give up it can feel like an impossible uphill struggle.You need supportive family on your side.Not only you need to know your illness and triggers but they do.Keep trying doctors if it becomes so bad take yourself to a&e.Good luck all and take care.

marta November 7, 2011 at 2:30 am

To little ole me How did you get better??

Matt December 24, 2011 at 3:40 pm

That makes perfect sense feel like I have wanted to die since i was born feel totally useless but know I am very creative and artistic i can go days without talking to people But get mad when people don’t try to talk to me but also get mad when they try to I could go on and on with examples i have a great wife and kids must get help after reading this I feel so bad for them

Danielle September 16, 2011 at 11:59 pm

Hun that is not true. Yes, these disorders can be hereditary, but just because no one in your family has been diagnosed does not mean you can’t have it. I think you should keep searching for a doctor because untreated this can be detrimental to your health. Good luck and God Bless.

terry jones September 24, 2011 at 11:07 am

dear april
i am 55 i was dianosed with bipolor at 50 no one in my family has it but my dad had a personality disorder i had suffered all my adult life .H
ave you any mental illness in your family history if you have have you informed the medics of this . all i can say is stick with it it took 30 years for my diagiaonis but after 5 years being ok on medication i am experencing problems at the moment sorry for the spelling mistakes email me if you think i can help you

terry

Maria Martin August 8, 2011 at 3:20 pm

Thanks soo such

lizzy wakefield August 10, 2011 at 8:15 am

i think i may be bipolar all the symptoms match up. i just noticed that its been playing a big role in my life and its hard to control. i cant control my temper , sadness or make any decissions. i barely sleep and im always tired.

Stuart Paterson August 25, 2011 at 8:44 am

Hi this is exactly how I feel but don’t know how to go about getting help

Cori September 1, 2011 at 2:18 pm

I’d swear you were describing me. Though after a couple of years of struggling to sleep I’ve finally found something that helps me. After trying sleep aides, from Ambien to Benadryl to Lunesta I actually found that listening to nature sounds on my iPhone using a couple different relaxation apps put me to sleep better and faster than any medication. For me my problem is that my brain won’t shut off and it runs at a mile a minute from subject to subject to subject. I find listening to the soothing sounds focusing and relaxing and thus it allows my mind to slow down enough to sleep. I share this tip with others as much as I can because I know how miserable it is to not sleep and I hope it can help even one other person!

Margie Williams February 15, 2012 at 3:45 pm

Hi Cory.

I’ve never thought I was bipolar, but I’m wondering A LOT now. I ran across an article that was almost word for word…me. I’ve known about depression, but for the manic side well the saying around here is that you have to be just a little crazy to survive our family. Depression can be treated; bipolar is forever, and I just don’t want to be “forever” anything. Anyway, that wasn’t why I was replying. I was replying for the sleep thing.

Last week I was trying to drown out my thoughts and I actively concentrated on the words “Breathe in, breathe out” with each breath. Lo and behold, I’m alseep in less than 5 minutes! It’s worked for a full week :)

marcia August 17, 2011 at 11:26 pm

my grand father was diagnosed as phycotic (don’t know how to spell it) manic depressive, does this run in families to any degree i wonder.

Danielle September 17, 2011 at 12:06 am

Yes, it can be hereditary. My mom was diagnosed with bipolar and dementia and I believe after having my baby I feel I’m on the depressive side of bipolar.

Beth January 15, 2012 at 6:34 pm

That could easily be postpartum depression you have. I feel for you, I went through it too after my second child was born.

Jerry Mahle August 20, 2011 at 7:32 pm

I seem to have many symtoms of Bipolar disorder. Thank you for the website. Very informative.

Jess Dumas August 20, 2011 at 8:01 pm

Thank you for making this test available!

randy August 20, 2011 at 8:19 pm

what does Bipolar spectrum disorder mean?

Melissa August 24, 2011 at 8:21 am

Bipolar spectrum disorder, I think, refers to a bipolar mood disorder that can’t be clearly defined, for example as bipolar type 1 or type 2.

I found some information here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_spectrum

Michelle August 20, 2011 at 8:27 pm

Thank you.

heather thompson August 22, 2011 at 2:52 am

I am a very depressed person I cry I always think bad things are gonna happen to someone close to me like a family member and im not gonna b able to help them I feel unworthy, hopeless,angry,selfish, all time im tired but cant sleep my mind never stops my medication I take helps n a way but it also makes me not give a dam about nothing its like it makes me have no feelings at all my house could b on fire an I would just sit there n burn up thats how I feel on medication I have panic attacks I dont like bein around people I feel like their out to git me or hurt me I cant work I think im goin crazy

Rex August 22, 2011 at 6:41 pm
Gala Ivie August 23, 2011 at 3:41 pm

Thank you

Ruby August 25, 2011 at 4:03 am

I have been diagnosed with mdd manic depression disorder. Most of the time when im working im real jumpy im like the class clown I make every one laugh alot. I try to help every one around me all the time, but as soon as im not at work or busy im totally opisite I am sad or very mad irritable moody at home I have five children great hubby and in laws who help n care about me so much but they never get to c the happy side of me I feel useless I want to bad to b affectionate to my kids but something inside me wont let me I put walls up that wont let me they try n kisss or hug me n I dont like it I feel violated its not right I need help I just dont got the money to pay a dr to give me the right meds all the meds ive taken make me gain weight or make me feel like a robot I hate this feeling ive gotten to the point where im comfortable knowing that if I die or vanish it wont matter b cuz im not a good person.

Warrior August 26, 2011 at 3:04 am

Aww Ruby, you’re a very good person!!

Beth Ann August 27, 2011 at 6:29 pm

I have been struggling for sometime as to whether or not I have bi-polar disorder. Both my parents did/do.

Reyna August 28, 2011 at 5:18 am

So I have a question, I’m 15 and I took the quiz and it said I had bipolar spectrum disorder. Can I have this at a young age.? I recently started noticing that one morning I’ll wake up laughing and the next I’ll wake up yelling and ignoring by everyone.! Like you could ask me one small question like “where is the juice.?” and I’ll get irritated and be like “i don’t know.! Go look for it yourself.!” I get irritated really easily, and tend to put myself down a lot and cry. Not thinking I’m pretty, or always doubting myself. All of this has gone on for a while but not as serious as this. Now a days I’m getting worser by the second. And my mom almost kicked me out of the house because of the way I was acting and my attitude. :/

Caroline September 3, 2011 at 12:37 am

Signs of bipolar disorder can appear as early as the middle of your childhood. A lot of people on my family (mainly women) are bipolar. I started showing symptoms when I was 7. I’m still not clinically diagnosed because I’m afraid. But I hope to change that soon and get on medication. Hope that info helps.

ASHLEY September 16, 2011 at 2:30 pm

Reyna,

You actually can have it as young as you are. I had similar feelings when I was as young as 7-8. I would get angry for no reason at all (I would literally start screaming and cursing while I’m all alone) or extremely sad and have thoughts of suicide. My first suicide attempt was at 8. I would also begin talking to myself (full-on conversations) whenever I felt lonely because no one else I knew was going through what I was. I hid how I was feeling from my family and friends for years and it wasn’t until I got married last year that I knew I couldn’t hide it anymore. My husband was the only person close to me that I shared I has suspicions of bipolar disorder; however when I saw the look of terror on his face when I started answering back to the voices in my head telling me to harm myself because I’ll feel better, I knew it was time to get some serious help. I sought a therapist who diagnosed me with Cyclomatic Bipolar disorder with mild psychosis. The point is I lived with it for 17 years (I’m 25 now) without a soul knowing about it. If you feel something’s off, speak up.

And Caroline bipolar disorder gets worse if left untreated so please get help.

Arnaldo January 9, 2012 at 12:43 am

Yes! You can! When i went to a mental hospital, I saw like 2 guys and 4 girls that where just diagnosed as bipolar and they ware like 14 to 18

leigh August 28, 2011 at 10:05 pm

yeah well some times i feel extremely shy then im talktive it s werid my mood can change from a drop of a dime im extremly funny and smart but………………….i have bad mouth on me like sacastic in fact an 1 hour ago my mom hit me 3 times in the face for beibg “disrespectful” i didnt feel like was but i guess it came off wrong its funny my own mom doesnt even know me.,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Richardesque August 31, 2011 at 4:50 pm

Wow, where to begin? I am here because I was curious about this, AFTER receiving a bipolar diagnosis from my latest psychiatrist, who I am seeing after an overnight stay in the psych ward (my first and hopefully last). I like taking tests. Over the years I’ve been diagnosed with a variety of conditions, and sometimes prescribed medications. School teachers have called me everything from hyper to lazy and at least one remarked on how variable my work could be, depending on whether I was interested in the topic.

I’ve had temper issues and a nasty tongue since high school (at 15), and also a serious sense of humor. I am now 40. College was especially strange; I have a Master’s degree as well as a lot of other college coursework. When I examine my transcripts, I am stunned at how well I did at some things and how badly at others… the same holds true at my work history, which covers a lot of ground. I’ve also seen my first marriage destroyed by my condition (although it was not the sole cause, it had to play a role).

Anyway, I already accepted the diagnoses of my doctor, because this time, the medication is working (mostly, at least much better than any other treatment). This little test just confirms the diagnosis I already have. I wonder how much better I could have done if this had been correctly diagnosed earlier? It really was more than twenty years of torture, not know what, or if, something was wrong…

lizey August 31, 2011 at 10:36 pm

Ruby i am going through something very
Similar iam glad to know iam not alone!

terri September 3, 2011 at 10:46 am

My partner has bi-polar and we have been together 10yrs now. It’s so hard don’t know if I can deal with it much longer.

john September 3, 2011 at 7:23 pm

Thanks for the info why as my doctor given me these facts been like it four years

marcia sharpe September 4, 2011 at 4:46 am

I feel like this me 100 percent

Kasey Krock September 4, 2011 at 7:09 pm

This fits my husband 100%.

katherine cain September 6, 2011 at 9:47 pm

For the past couple of months I have had a pretty rough time, break down of a parents marriage, and the partner eventually trying to kill herself, i thought it was completely normal for me not to be feeling quite right, then it went into stages where i had work in the afternoon, and i wouldn’t get out of bed till ten mins before i was due there, then all i’d do is stand at the top of the stairs not wanting to go, among other difficulties with my mother this resulted in her telling me not to bother coming home and i haven’t done since. my moods i feel have improved slightly but looking back i was always keeping myself and brain occupied with something else, flat hunting or just sitting on the computer. but recently my ‘depressive’ mood (if that’s what it is don’t want to use it as a certainity as many people do have it a lot worse than me) have lasted for a good few weeks, and taking this test has made me think about things, and my mood abt a week ago did go from quite quiet and moody to suddenly very hyper and talking about anything and everything, my mate puts it down to a sudden sugar rush but since i was only on sugar free tea i’m not so sure. this mood swing resulted in me getting about two hrs kip and about the same the next night which didn’t help me as i had a five thirty wake up work, i’m strarting to wonder am i just going through a rough patch which is lasting a while and i should be able to snap myself out of it or is it something more……..??? so confused x

brittney September 8, 2011 at 3:09 am

My parents thinks i am bipolar i took this test and got a 41……..I’m not really sure what to say or do.

Adam September 11, 2011 at 8:55 pm

Maybe you should go to a doctor or something. I know how you feel, we have to stay strong.

Anonomous September 8, 2011 at 4:01 am

So the test was kind of unclear i wasnt sure if it was how well it fit you or how often so i answered based on how much it fit me i scored a 45 my sister is and my mother was dignosed with bipolar disorder i am currently 17. My mom just under a year ago took her own life the first few weeks after that i was very confused bairly understanding what bipolar was and complete shock of what was happening. The following weeks included me exploding with anger before bed and bursting to tears reading. After a month or two i seemed back to myself emontionly. But i will have one half of a week that i am very productive and the next where i have trouble geting up to take a shower. This is not something on a schedual (like i dont get lazy by the end of the week). And sometimes i am one way for long periods of time. I am socialy awkward ( probably normal for teenagers) i seem like all the questions seemed ovious to fit me but feel like its normal ( at least to me) . I whould like to seek help and se a theropist and see there take but i have 2 problems first i have a personal history of teling theropists what they want to hear and 2 i am planing on joining the marine corp my fathers side of the family is mostly military i whould be a 3 rd gen marine and 5 th gen military but has no history of bipolar disorder on my moms side she was navy but no one else she droped out her 3 rd year in pregnet with my sister . I dont know if the marine corp will let me in if im in the act of being dignosed or tested for being bipolar disorder i dont know if its worth the risk to confront this issue now or after my 4 years.

Anonomous September 8, 2011 at 4:07 am

Sorry about the spelling and punvtuation. This was me typing raw feelings.

joel September 14, 2011 at 3:31 am

Anonomous,

please get help b4 joining the marine corp.. it will only make it worse if you go in and are bipolar without getting help firs… i joined the army and went through 7 years of compleate hell and have felt like i do mentaly since about 17 or 18. good luck

Heather September 11, 2011 at 4:01 am

I was diagnosed with bipolar about a month and a half ago. My advise for someone that doesnt know what to do is to find a pyschologist ( Someone that can talk with you and let you know what you might be suffering from but cant perscribe). They can help you understand and it will come more clear to you.( it did for me) I went to my pyschologist for about a month and she told me what to tell the doctor. Make sure you are completly honest. ( I was affraid that they would think I was nuts) Please know that they just want to help you not judge you. Write every different feeling you have down. I know its hard to especially when your in a screw it mood. For me it was hard because i would forget the different feeling that i have felt based on what mood i was in. When i was hypomanic i would feel great on top of the world and tell myself iam completly fine im not bipolar, then i would get so down that i just wanted to be alone and do nothing. Then i would flip out for no reason get extremely irritable yell and scream at everyone for nothing, then feel horrible for what i had done/said and get depressed. If this sounds like you know that medication and therapy can change your life for the GOOD. Feel good, have great days and to not always worry when your mood might change out of no where. Once you see a psychologist you will know what to tell your psychiatrist ( someone that can perscribe medication) Make sure you bring notes of all your feeling/symptoms. This will help insure a more accurate diagnosis! If anyone needs to talk e-mail me at heather20491@yahoo.com I know what it feels like to feel alone and to have no one to talk to. GOOD LUCK!!

sean September 11, 2011 at 6:36 am

ive been taking all these test because i am realizing what ive been doing for years is not normal and i might have a serious problem…havent talked to a proffessional yet kind of really scared and what to be completely sure before i do..havent told any family or friends but been secretly looking for someone i can trust to tell

nicole November 22, 2011 at 7:15 pm

I am the exact same way for fear of judgement.

steve sutton September 11, 2011 at 7:32 am

so since i have BIpolar should i move closer to the equater, whoa,,,,

michelle September 11, 2011 at 7:24 pm

Thank you for helping me with answering my questions, now to find a dr that can help

Jude September 11, 2011 at 8:01 pm

Just a few heads ups… SORRY ABOUT THE LENGTH OF THIS. I just felt so much… I don’t even know what it is. But I can relate to EVERYONE here and it is a slight relief to have a possible answer. It made me want to vent.
Secondly, I hope everyone here finds a solution and happiness. I wish you all the very best.
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I scored a 52 on the test. I ‘m reading these comments and honestly they scare me. Everyone seems to be describing me perfectly. I don’t even know where to start… There’s no logical order of things :|
I have a friend whom I love very much. My birthday is the day after hers, and our provincial birth certificates are only one number apart, so we joke that we’re twins. we’re both turning 20 this year, and we’ve known each other since 2nd grade. I’ve known her for years, and she’s very supportive and understanding. She’s just an all around good person. She has her flaws like everyone else, but I KNOW that I know her well enough to look past them, and if not, I DEFINITIVELY know how to talk to her about it.
All I’m trying to get at here is that I know I’m lucky to have a friend like her. Even more lucky considering the way I treat her sometimes.
Every,I’d say, 6-8 months, I can’t stand the sight of her. I will ignore text messages and phone calls until she gives up. To me, she suddenly and out of nowhere becomes the pinnacle of evil, or some crazy sh*t like that. I block her from my newsfeed on Facebook, because the sight of her name alone infuriates me. I blame her for all of my problems.
There’s two major problems there, first being that, no, she’s not the cause of any of them. Second being that they really aren’t even problems. They are crazy, outlandish fears that I suddenly convince myself are legitimate problems that exist, like that fact that those d*nm Disney stars are younger that me and way more successful. Or the fact that I don’t have bangs. I can’t walk in heels very well. These become larger than life problems. Like, “cry myself to sleep, no will to live” problems. I would want nothing more to be alone, and so I would blame all my problems on the one person I see almost everyday. killed two birds with one stone, I’m alone, and I don’t have to take blame or really think about my “problems”.
But to sum this up, because I can talk about this for HOURS and not cover all things…
-”Little ole me” talked about “making friends when higher, losing them when low”, story of my life. ALSO “I just always thought it was normal to have suicide thoughts and extreme thoughts of creativity” THANK YOU. I go from emo kid to Lady Gaga in 2.2.
As for a family history of Bipolar-ism, I’m going to be honest, I think my mother and brother may both have it as well… they are both undiagnosed.
- “lizzy Wakefield” stole the words out of my mouth. Thank you.
- “Cori” I’ve found that too! I’ve never been on any medication (though I’ve been thinking about it), but I have always noticed that soothing music/sounds helps my mind slow down so I can focus on school work…. never tried it for sleep though. Thanks for the tip :)
- “Heather Thompson” really struck home with me… “no feelings at all my house could b on fire an I would just sit there n burn up” I’m not on medications, but I definitely relate to this 100%. Suicidal thoughts aren’t uncommon BUT I don’t feel a will to die… I don’t have any suicidal tendencies. Having said that, there’s no will to live either. No energy, no feeling. I wouldn’t kill myself, but if something else did… well, I wouldn’t run (at my low points).
-”Ruby” First of all, you are a good person. :) Never forget that. The people around you love you for a reason, and I guarantee it’s because they can see the goodness in your heart.
You say that you “put up walls” from your loved ones, and you wish to be more affectionate. I can relate 100%. My friends, when they’re around me, usually have to deal with ridicule and being the butt of countless jokes I throw their way. I love them more than anything, and I think they know that, but I hurt them so much. Some have talked to me about it, I’ve lost some friends… I honestly just feel like there’s so much inside, whether it be love, or passion, and the thought of letting it out and opening up to the world scares me.
-”Richardesque” “School teachers have called me everything from hyper to lazy and at least one remarked on how variable my work could be, depending on whether I was interested in the topic” YES. ME. “I’ve had temper issues and a nasty tongue since high school (at 15), and also a serious sense of humor” YES AGAIN. “When I examine my transcripts, I am stunned at how well I did at some things and how badly at others” YES. just YES! Thank you for sharing.
-”Katherine Cain” I feel like broken record saying this over and over, but I CAN RELATE 100% to what you say! In university this past year, I would sleep in just the same, until I had the bare minimum time to get to class, and that’s when I chose to go (which as the year went on, got less and less). I also find myself “keeping myself and brain occupied with something else”.
-”Anonomous” – “…me exploding with anger before bed and bursting to tears reading. After a month or two i seemed back to myself emontionly. But i will have one half of a week that i am very productive and the next where i have trouble geting up to take a shower.” When I read this I though I’d written it. :| Me exactly.

joel September 14, 2011 at 3:42 am

same,same and same here again…. kinda sucks that there is not more awareness about this disorder.. it has deff taken a tole on my life.. emplyment, relationships, anything i care about has been affected by this disorder. i deff encourage anyone that hasnt gotten help to do so..i hope all the best of luck..

Adam September 11, 2011 at 8:52 pm

Someone please tell me if Bi-Polar,
2 Years ago i came back from a camp.. I started to think of suicidal thoughts.. When i go on holiday i get worried if someones going to kidnap me or something, When i lay in my bed i think of My family dieying or me having no future, I get really emotional about nany things, Like thoughts or anything, I feel as if us humans have no purpose and as if we were not meant to do all the things we can, Im only 11 if someone could reply that would be fantastic.
If im not Bi-Polar do you have sny ideas of anything else i may have?
Thank you and please reply.

Rasmus September 15, 2011 at 8:23 am

There can be alot of things wrong, and there can be nothing wrong. Stepping into your teens, and with that puberty, can mess with your head. If you have suicidal thoughts, feel hopeless ex. go see a professional immediatly.

britt November 2, 2011 at 9:19 pm

Wow, you sound A LOT like wut is happening to me. I sometimes have suicidal thoughts, but i always brush them away, saying to myself that it would only hurt my family and friends if I killed myself.

carolina September 13, 2011 at 12:15 am

i took this test and it said i was a 37. idk how to get myself tested and im still young wht do i say to my mom? :’(

nicole jones September 13, 2011 at 4:27 pm

i havent been to a doctor but i think i may have some sort of dipolar disorder. im to the point where i dont kno what to do i have 3 kids n a husband n i just dont feel right.

Heleyna September 13, 2011 at 6:08 pm

Maybe, You need someone to talk to…

faye egg September 14, 2011 at 5:56 am

its the same thing my clinical instructor said when i was in college and have taken some psych test…..

curious62 September 14, 2011 at 3:10 pm

I find it rather odd (and yet a great illustration of the state of our society) that regardless of how you answer these questions, the resulting score will indicate some kind of disorder.

Rasmus September 15, 2011 at 8:16 am

I have recently been diagnosed with bipolar disorder after first being treated for major depresssion. Im strugglin to take my medicin, I simply have no idea whats going on in my life at any time and sometimes during “hypomanic” episodes Im totally comfortable with my life being a mess.
The thing is that almost everyone I ever discussed with recognize what I am describing in themselves. Everybody has high’s and low’s at time to time but people have trouble differing that from the extremes states of emotion that comes with bipolar. Please don’t jump to conclusions if you believe you’ve have a problem. Try to experience a person that is truly manic and/or depressed and see if you can recognize the behaviour then.
I do not believe this test is very helpful, because any person can relate to the described emotions, even though he/her doesnt experience their extremes as one with bipolar.

sljbabeszx September 17, 2011 at 11:56 pm

Well i scored 56.

I have been having episodes since I was about 15-16. I considered these mild.
Last year i hit a really bad state of depression for a few months. Then for 2 months i felt reasonally normal and then I went on what the mental health team describe as manic. I felt like Alive, happy, energetic, my ideas were jumping from one to another. It got to the point where i was out drinking 4-5 times a week and I even was walking through the main road of town whilst stripping off. I don’t remember this happening though. My sex drive was so high i was taking any man home just to get the sexual pleasure i needed. I slept with around 10 men in the space of 3 months. Some of them on more than 1 occassion. I heard voices telling me i was the new british celine dion and that I had the power of everyone. This went on for about 3 months then i hit a depression where i was hearing voices telling me to harm myself. I tried to take my own life and i was sectioned under the mental health act. In the hospital i put a smile on my face as i didnt believe there was anything wrong with me .. even though on the inside i felt so isolated and guilty. I felt like death! and couldnt stop thinking about it. I am currently seeing the mental health team again but have only seen them once and i am still awaiting a diagnosis. My older sister has bipolar disorder and my nan on my dads side had it to. I don’t know if i do have it but i guess i will soon find out

Me September 18, 2011 at 2:10 am

I scored a 50. Everyone thinks I’m just mean but I really don’t mean to hurt people. I’m 38 and can’t get anyone to understand that I may suffer from bipolar disorder. Now I’m trying to find help in my area but the money is very limited. What should I do??

Lea September 19, 2011 at 2:02 am

I feel like I may be bipolar. I kind of told my parents, but I don’t think they are taking what I’m saying seriously. I’m 14 (almost 15 in few months). I have times when I feel really hyper and excited, and I may talk fast. People may say ” You’re hyper. Calm down.” But other times, I put myself down constantly in my mind and think about the things that make me feel bad and cry, cry, cry. I also may get annoyed very easily…like simple questions make me irratated and i make others feel bad. I also over sleep and I still feel tired when I wake up. I feel like I may just be going through teen issues but I think its more…I think it is bipolar disorder. How can I get my parents to believe what I’m saying? They always say that I’m really moody and stuff, so how can they not believe me?

Charlotte September 20, 2011 at 5:59 am

Hi
I’m only 18 years old but I just took this test and scored 59. I’ve taken numerous other tests and I always score really high on those too. I’m unsure whether to go to the doctors or not, even now there’s still so much stigma about having Bipolar disorder however despite the fact that I’m only young it’s definitely affecting my life. Throughout my school life every exam I’ve taken, the results have been dependent on my mood, if I’m in a really good mood I do brilliantly and come top, however, if I’m feeling low I have no motivation to do well and don’t get great grades, making me appear really inconsistent. It’s also affected my personal relationships, as a result I now have no close friends and recently split up with my boyfriend because he could not put up with my ways. Now I feel lonlier than ever.
When I’m feeling really low (like now) I frequently contemplate suicide and sometimes self harm, however when I’m feeling up I feel incredible, as if I can do no wrong, the world is my oyster and it doesn’t matter what people think of me and how many friends and what family I have because I’m incredible. The thing is, I love it when I’m on a high because I feel amazing, it’s only afterwards (like now) that I realise how stupid I’ve been and then I’m filled with regret, the only thing I can really compare it to is when you go out and get drunk and do something really stupid and the next day you wake up and you’re immediately filled with regret.
The thing is, I’ve wanted to go to the doctors numerous times but by the time I finally pluck up the courage, my mood changes and I just feel brilliant and that there’s nothing wrong with me and it’s all just part of my quirky personality.
Like alot of people who have already commented on here, I don’t have any relatives with the condition that I know of, however, my father left me before I was born so it could be present on his side of the family. However, I was raped nearly three years ago and I read that something like that could provoke the condition. Any help or advice you could give me would be great.

Tom September 20, 2011 at 7:28 pm

I’ve scored 43, and at the age of 18, that’s a little unnerving – no one in my family (to my knowledge) has bipolar, though my dad has had clinical depression. For the past year or so, I’ve had symptoms, but I’ve always assumed they’re just the ups and downs of normal adolescence, particularly my irritability, which is worse than anyone else I know of. But my girlfriend’s convinced something’s up with me – difficult to know what to think, since it seems so fashionable to diagnose yourself with bipolar these days.

Megan September 21, 2011 at 10:33 pm

I have been in and out of major depression since age 15. I am now 24 and feel like I did in school again. I was diagnosed as possibly bipolar at age 19… so most likely. I scored a 46 on the test. I go in and out of phases of sexually active then am completely against it the following week. I seek male friends then I am upset when they want to sleep with me… or even touch me at all. I am never very hyper but I have been awake for almost 36 hours and not even sleepy. I am hungry but only eat enough to make the growling stop. I feel like I am on the go with nowhere to go. I have symptoms of mania physically, but feel very sad emotionally. I am going to start seeing a counselor next week.

Megan September 21, 2011 at 10:39 pm

I have also quit every job I’ve ever had out of boredom… now that I think about it. I move often and get sick of neighborhoods very quickly. I am starting to see how possible this really is…

Rian martin September 22, 2011 at 1:47 am

How do I approach my family with this situation??? I’m CONFUSED

Jessica September 22, 2011 at 5:19 am

Its says that I’m at the spectrum but I don’t really understand what this means. I’ve been feeling this way for years since I was about 16. I’m 21 now. I’ve had the periods of extreme happyness were I talk and laugh and joke around with everyone and make friends easily but then I get depressive periods that seem to last longer. The suicidal thoughts and even the self injury. My brother has been diagnosed with anxiety disorder and I have an uncle that gets panic attacks, but I’ve never been diagnosed and I’m a little afraid to go get help. I mean what if I really do have something?

bipolarpolarbear September 22, 2011 at 8:04 am

Living with the disorder isn’t fun. Especially for my friends and family. I am medicated but i start to feel like a lab rat so far though i have been on the right meds. But it is adjusting the one med that keeps me not to be going manic or irritable. I just have to deal till the doctors find the right ones to keep me mellow

gina September 23, 2011 at 1:31 am

sooooo i took the bypolar test online…, says im bypolar. my babys father an his family believe that i am. i want to believe so myself but at the same time i dont. how do i really know for sure?????? HELP ME PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Josh E. September 23, 2011 at 5:50 pm

I truly feel as if I am LOSING my mind right now. I am 33 years old and for many many years I have had these exact symptoms. I cannot hold a job for more than like 6 months at a time and the first 3 are getting everyone to LOVE me and then next 3 are spent comlaining about HOW MUCH I HATE it. I get anxiety so bad that I almost feel a sence of normalcy from it. I would however like some relief. I have all the symptoms. I am so scared to go to the hospital because they told me that I may have to enter into a psyche unit. that scares me more than anything as I am not a threat to myself physically or others. due to much childhood abuse, I tend to shy away from violence of any kind and the thought of death alone is a very sobering and scarry thing. all i want is to feel normal, whatever normal may be.

Angela September 23, 2011 at 6:27 pm

is becoming very irritable and angry over the smallest things and being very verbal abusive a sign of bipolar

Tara September 25, 2011 at 3:36 am

I am 14 and am experencing tons of depression, I have a new family member, i dont like, and am to afraid to talk to my parents about possibly wanting death.

What should I do?

Vanessa September 26, 2011 at 3:35 am

My mom thinks im bipolar & for the past 10 months ive been having all these symptoms , im only 13 & im really scared . The only person that understands
Whats happening is my bestfriend , no one in my family has had bipolar disorder (that ive heard of ) & i dont wanna tell my family whats going on “/ help

Vanessa September 26, 2011 at 3:39 am

Also I Scored A 58 On All Of The Tests I Took

wayne uk September 26, 2011 at 11:10 am

I think i have bipolar but after 3 different types of anti depressants the doctor thinks i have depression and anger issues.
What is it going to take for them to look into my family history and see that its not just normal depression …..
Both my mother and brother both deceased had manic depression …

Lisa September 27, 2011 at 3:12 am

FOR ADAM:
I’m not an expert, but my son has spent his life with the kinds of thoughts you are thinking. It sounds more like anxiety and/or Obsessive Compulsive Disorder instead of bi polar. Is there any way you can talk to one of your parents about this and maybe have them take you to your family doctor and get a referral for a counselor that deals with anxiety/ocd issues?
Hang in there. I know anxiety can be scary.
Lisa

BAHAREH September 27, 2011 at 6:03 pm

I’ve got 25! i had a really bad mania in 18 years old so in that time i could’nt have my satisfying grade at school. now i’m 22. i’m in a chemical treatment from 19 to now.
when can i finish this trestment? my doctor says you must be usuall for 3 yesrs and then you can finish having that much pills.

Xray Max September 30, 2011 at 11:37 am

I got Bipolar spectrum disorder I know I have deprssion, but I just realize that I have dipolar as well :/ .. Now I know why I changed a lot in last 4 years.

I would love to hear ur stories about it, maybe I know more, please contact me:
xx.hearts.breaker.xx@hotmail.com

Chad September 30, 2011 at 2:45 pm

My wife was diagnosed with bipolar2 back in March. This came about after about a year of excessive spending and infidelity. It seems the timing mostly correlates to when she began taking some weight loss medication from a weight loss she joined. We’ve been together for 17 years and have four beautiful children. I don’t understand how she can do this. She explained to me that she has racing thoughts, can’t make decisions easily, and she can get very angry at times and not really know why. She also went through an episode where she was extremely tired all the time, sleeping, and anti-social. But these symptoms seem to be so erratic. There doesn’t seem to be a consistent “swing” to them. She has a family history of bipolar. (dad, brother, aunts, and uncles, etc.)

Anyway, after she was diagnosed in March, she took the meds for about 7 weeks. She said she felt better on them but then decided to stop taking them. She complains that although she seems to be in more control when she is on them, she doesn’t experience happiness to the same degree either and she is not willing to accept that. We agreed to try to see if she could manage the bipolar well through diet, sleep, stress management, etc. an things went mostly really well for about two months. Then she started withdrawing again and she started to convince herself that she really isn’t bipolar and that the reason she did all those things is because she must not love me enough… Confused and scrambling or answers for the sudden change, I realized that she was taking an energy drink with was loaded with stimulants she should be avoiding. She has been off of the energy drink for 4 days now, but she is still convinced she wants a divorce. She needs to know what its like to be on her own, she says. She can’t deal with all the hurt she’s caused and she points the finger to me because I have trust issues with her. Admittedly, I have checked phone records and Facebook to see if she is still engaging in risky behavior, but that is always due to her abruptly disconnecting with me.

I don’t know what to so. She feels the whole world is against her because even her family is telling her she needs help but she just won’t listen. I’m here for her in just about any way she needs. She’s my best friend and the love of my life, but i she doesn’t come to grips with this soon I’m not sure how much more I can take. I know she will regret divorcing me and putting the kids though this, but all the regret in the world won’t fix the pain and grief at that point.

If this is a depressive or manic episode, how do I know? How o I know if she is stable right now and maybe she really just doesn’t love me anymore?

Any personal experience anyone can offer here would be greatly appreciated.

Shelley October 2, 2011 at 9:42 am

I have scored 45 on the test and although i have never been diagnosed with bi polar by my Dr I have been struggling with problems since my early teens (I am now nearly 24). I have suffered from anxiety for which my Dr has prescribed Diazepam in the past and these made me super paranoid resulting in one episode when i was literally climbing the walls searching my room for ‘bugs’ convinced there were hidden cameras and people watching me. More recently I had been prescribed Haloperidol for my ‘psychotic episodes’ but these made me a dribbling mess resulting in me losing days at a time. I can go a year between these psychotic episodes showing ‘normal behaviour’ for months then going through a period of mania before crashing back down to earth with a hell of a bump. Even though I can normally function well for 11 and a half months out of 12 I feel as if I am really pushing my luck with my behaviour during my mania as I upset my family and friends and work less efficiently in my job. I work as a Health Care Assistant at present but I have had 5 different jobs since I started working at 18 and I have quit from most of my previous jobs during periods of mania due to boredom. I have never had suicidal tendencies but often had a feeling of impending doom and during the months coming up to my 16th birthday I was convinced I was going to die when I turned 16. My Grandmother (my Mum’s side) suffered from Post Natal Depression with her 1st child and was sectioned and given Electric Shock Therapy and suffered with mania and depression resulting in divorce as my grandad couldnt cope with her ‘highs’ and ‘lows’. She lived with anxiety and never remarried living alone for her final years dying in 2006. We were extremely close. I had a psychotic episode 4 days a go which occurred after a brief period of mania which started at the beginning of the week. My psychotic episodes start with a headache and then I start talking really fast then not making any sense. Then I get arguementative and irritable and shout and swear ( I am usually quite mild mannered) and then I have a panic attack crying and shaking uncontrollably. After that I wring my hands, chew my lips and grind my teeth and sometimes sit and rock back and forth sometimes in silence or whilst talking to myself. By this time my fiance who I have been with since I was 16 will have got the Haloperidol tablets out as we agreed with my Dr that he will administer this in the event of an attack. As I write this I feel really low as if I am just exsisting and not engaging with the world around me. Me and my fiance had sex the other day and he said it felt like he was having sex with a stranger as I was not emotionally connected with him which upset us both as we usually ‘make love’. I usually return to normal fairly quickly after an attack but I am beginning to wonder whether I need help in order to cope in my everyday life so I can prevent these episodes from happening at all.

Manda October 3, 2011 at 2:43 am

I think I may have bipolar. I can be in the happiest mood ever and even if someone does the littlest thing, I get angry and start yelling. I cry randomly and I really don’t know why.. my grandma is hoping to get me checked for bipolar. My boyfriend has it and it’s such a hassle to me also. I never bothered to ask if anyone in my family has it .. I asked my mom if she thinks if I could have it, but she said I’m a total bitch. I have ADHD. Also, I’m sorry for all you guys’ problems.

ali October 3, 2011 at 4:32 am

I think im bipolar I always get mad so fast and sometimsss ill just get real happy then im back to depressed and the only way I feel happy is hutting myself and that involved cutting and im tired of being depressed and hurting myself inside and out and my mom doesnt believe me that I have a problen I dont get it and in young I dont know what to do help please?

sarah October 3, 2011 at 5:40 am

hi. im sarah. i was diagnosed with bi polar disorder and border line schizophrenia when i was 14 but when i am off my medicine i do better sometimes but my anger is worse. yet, on my medicine my depression is worse… im not quite sure what i should do. it really affects my work and my social life. im not quite sure what i should do. my doctor actually told me that they didn’t know how to help me. what should i do?

Sam October 3, 2011 at 10:26 am

Hi, I got in the 40s on the test, wha do I do?

Georgia October 4, 2011 at 7:54 pm

Im 14 and the hospital rekons i have bi-polar my score came out 55 and i keep seeing things like demons standing accross from mee and in my dreams ect. It really scares me and i cry all the time and get really angry and at other time im alrrii :(

claire October 5, 2011 at 10:11 am

i sound so much like a lot of you and my test was 45 but my doctor already ruled it out last year.i’m so confused,she said id benefit from therapy than medication (after going through nearly all the anti-d’s in 9yr) but the therapist i saw on monday said that i need medication and he can’t help me,then asked me to leave.i’m 26 and attempted suicide at 17,then at 19 just after having my 1st child.after having children i feel i need to be alive in case either of them end up like me but how can i help them if i don’t know whats wrong with me. when im down i struggle with social situations have no friends and feel like the lonelyiest person on the planet, no one understands me, everyone is judging me,im extremely anxious and either cry a lot or get very irritated and defensive.then there’s times when everyones my friend,i spend everything on random rubbish and i feel like i’m larger than life..i love this me,until i have to deal with the dept and my moods start bouncing from one extreme to the other.i never know what mood im going to wake up in or whether something is going to happen to tip that mood.right now..i’m absoloutely sick of it.i don’t see the point in struggling for another 9 year and putting my children threw this.i feel like theyre more likely to be like me if they learn how mummy behaves is normal.

James December 7, 2011 at 1:06 am

I was too misdiagnosed for about 5 years. I am 20 now, have been dealing with mood swings since I could remember. My parents just thought I was just a bratty little kid. My mother always knew I was a highly sensitive kid since I wouldn’t wear clothes made from certain fabrics. Growing up I was still very sensitive and irritable. I take lithium now and it has helped me a lot. My parents still don’t believe I have bipolar. They think that I just need to learn to control my emotions. I try. I never want my bipolar episodes to effect any ( even though i am usually a nice guy). I have to thank lithium for getting me out of crippling depression and controlling my irritability. Lithium isn’t a cure all so I have to put in work to make me feel stable. Excersise and a heathy diet has helped me the most. Especially Excersise. Remember if you have bipolar or any other “disorder”, don’t focus on having it so much. Acknowledge it, make your treatment a habit,move on. Bipolar can be a blessing if used in a constructive way.

Rebecca October 5, 2011 at 6:46 pm

I did online test and It says that I have bipolar spectrum. I am depressed alot but then I get really hiper and very talkative. I will sometimes will all of sudden get really angery for no reason. My husband get the blunt of my anger. I know my dad was diagnosed with depression and anxeity. I don’t know where to get help or conferm that I have Bipolar.

acidburnsoul October 7, 2011 at 11:18 am

I’m am 17 and have just taken the test. I scored 56 and says that I have bipolar spectrum. Reading ur posts made me realise I’m not alone. I see myself in ur situations. I’ve always thought I was ‘different’. I always felt so ‘alone’. It’s comforting know that our (most) experiences shows great similarity. I haven’t consulted a professional yet. I’m scared I haven’t told anyone coz of this stigma about bipolar. I’ve been showing symptoms since about the age of 11 and at 15 I did some reasearch and all the Bipolar symptoms fit 100% with me. I’m scared. I don’t know where or how to seek for help. So i’m taking baby steps starting here. I’m too emotional right now to share my experiences so I’ll post it later. I’ve always thought that ugh it’s just the teen hormones that’s out of balance but how can that be? I mean I’ve been having these symptoms since 11 and it’s only gotten worse over the years. I’ve tried monitoring my mood and behaviour but I have absolute no control over it. I’ve been experiencing mystical experiences, have full-on conversations with myself, irritable, poetic, suicidal, invincible, combative, etc…the list just goes on… No-one has ever understood my behaviour, me. I don’t think they ever will. I feel like I’m a burden for others, a total nuisance. My dad left my mom while she was still pregnant with me. I don’t want to hassle her put anymore difficulties, she’s already been putting up with me for so long. I’m currently living with my aunt. I’ve always blamed my mom. I thought she was the root cause of my behaviour. I hated her. But, everywhere I go it’s the same. Everyone can’t be wrong. The problem had to be me. I hate feeling like this. I’m so darn emotional all the time! Then again I totally loooove those moments when I feel extremely invincible and on top of the world. I have to take action now before I do something stupid. I’m 17 and clueless. I acknowledge that I NEED help but where do I do? I have no financial or medical aid. My mom’s a single parent of four and she’s lost her job 3 years ago and been struggling to find a decent job and I the last thing I want is to burden her with THIS! The waysSs I am feeling is not healthy at all. I get that. I have no-one to confide in and I don’t think my family or friends will understand. So I get up and do what I have to. Put on a face that’d get me through another day. So right now I just want to reveal myself and die. I’ve been suicidal since 11. It’s so sad. My life is so sad. I’m sad. I have deep regret for pushing everyone away in life and building walls around myself. I don’t like being around people. I prefer being left alone. I don’t like sound. And all these sound and voices in my head won’t shut up so I talk back. It seems crazy admitting it now but to me it’s completely normal. I do it all the time. Sometimes I even make expressions to go along with the conversation. I don’t trust anyone. I find comfort and peace in talking back to the voices inside. It’s home to me. When I have ‘highs’ I’m extremely social, sarcastically funny (love when I’m feeling like this), I have rapid speech and overflow with ideas and creativity, I feel invincible and feel part of something great. I sometimes feel like a high priestess and like I’m in total control and I excel at everything I take on and eveyone loves me but when I’ve hit a ‘low’ everyone becomes my enemy and I shut everything out. I feel dark and like I don’t give a flying phuck about anything. Then I start planning my death which always fails. Then when that happens then I hurt myself. I scratch myself and pierce my nails into my skin. I get this weird sensation when inflicting pain. Aaah pain, “just a simple compromise”. I can’t concentrate and my emotions are all over the place. My thoughts are flying and my fiery words spits in all directions and my body heats up and I start rocking and going in circles and then shaking my head just to shake my sanity back together. Then I got to my misery den (bed) and that’s where I’ll lay for hours. Covers pulled over my head and then I start to cry and then I start to flip and then I start cursing and then I cry even more till my pillow is completely soaked. Then I think bad thoughts like what if someone close to me got hurt. I do I cope? Will I be able to help? Will it be my fault indirectly? Then I block out. Then I start building walls around my thoughts, people around me, I block out reality. Then it’s just me in my world. The one that sucks me into it. The one that suffocates me. The one who’s brought about so much bad memories. The one who’s hurting me. The one I despise. Then I start fantasising about my death, I find great pleasure in it. Then I’m back to square one. I feel incompetent. Alone. Scared. Tired. Tired of life. I’m tired of evryone telling me it’s “okay” when they don’t even have the foggiest idea of what I might be going through. Don’t tell me you understand my pain. Don’t tell me to have faith. Don’t talk to me at all! Maybe i’m just better off alone anyway or dead. I’ve got this under control, I’ve got this under control. It’s all under control. Well it’s not! So what if I act out of control, so what if i’m crazy? It’s not like anyone cares. Or even will. I’m just a weakling in despair.

spoken4 October 7, 2011 at 9:00 pm

hello i am recently diagnosed with bipolar and it answers a lot of questions I have been struggling with major issues of this disorder and at times have considered death as an answer i thank the heavens i can now understand why i am so troubled.

Cat October 9, 2011 at 12:08 am

I think I may be bipolar. All the symptoms described describes me to a t. I’m not sure if anyone in my family has ever been dignossd with it or not. Do I need to go see a doctor and see what he or she thinks?

daniel October 9, 2011 at 10:22 pm

Hi, I’m 17 years of age and have thought for roughly 3-5 years now that I have been suffering from depression. I finally confronted my mother about it last winter and I received blood tests which claimed I’m not depressed, although I have still been feeling this same way and I find it incredibly hard to believe anyone that’s mentally healthy could feel the way I do. So I kept researching and came across bi-polar syndrome (forgive me if its not a syndrome) and now that I think about it, that describes me more.. I always try to be optimistic to achieve personal goals in my life. My suffering caused me to loose interest in everything i found most interesting.. My attendance at school is the lowest they’ve ever seen and at times i just want to drop out, but then other days I feel like can do anything and I tell myself I am going to graduate and make it in this life.. then as soon as the very next day (for example) I feel so useless, helpless and as if I’m just walking down a dead end. I tried to commit suicide 3 times this year, the third being just last month. I want to seek help but don’t understand, wouldn’t that have came up from the blood test? please help…

nicole November 22, 2011 at 7:35 pm

Things like this have happened to me as well I can definently relate.

lalala hola October 10, 2011 at 3:30 am

i really think my mom is bipolar she always flip and i believe i might be too it might just run in the family idk

Midnight28 October 10, 2011 at 3:40 pm

I scored a 60 on the quiz, wow that really scares me yo……. i was recently diagnosed with having deppression. After reading a lot of your comments on here, it really sounds like you are describing me, this 28yr old male from philly. Who often at times feel like giving up, but I only feel that way when I am at my place of employment. I was on disability for like 3 months, and after the first month I began to feel like normal I guess, but now that I returned back too work, already I have called off because I was deppressed; not eating, doctor had to increase my meds…… I dont know whats going on, I feel like I am in danger of losing my job, it feels like they are out too get me here at work….. I will say that it does feel kind of good too see that there are other folks out here that feel the same way I do. Yes now I find myself talking too myself at my desk, I dont know what the heck is going on.

P J October 11, 2011 at 6:11 am

From an early age I suffered with hallucination…s and from age 15 I felt constantly bored with life on the whole. At this age I only recall feeling bored and could never envised any positive change. From around 1999 this feelng became more manic with bouts of high and then unexplainable lows. Now I suffer with spiritual delusions which include communicating with the dead. Following is an excerpt from a recent experience;
I haven’t been diagnosed but follow all symptoms of bi-polar 1. I have just become shocked reading the delusions on this site and also take on the ability of a psychic when in possible catatonic, psychotic state. These psychic moments feel absolutely real to me as I can ask the spirit a question and receive an answer! These answers are related to me in a strange, unfamiliar format. For example, I asked “Are you male or female?” and the response was “I’m not male”. This ‘backward’ way of answering a question is not one I ever recall using before! A recent visit by a female spirit left my physically feeling vomit in my throat with a dry, acidic after taste on my teeth, suggesting the spirit had choked in her sleep. The latest incident gave me a vision of a pair of eyes which was unusualy in colour whilst a female voice repeated the same sentence over and over in my head. I had to leave the lounge to go upstairs where it was quieter to hear what was said.

Jena October 11, 2011 at 11:42 pm

Hello All,

I’m 32 years old and have always felt these moods. I’m always either really happy with a ton of engery or I’m in this really low place where I feel like my world is ending for no reason at all. Funny thing though, when I start my day off with a 6+mile run this doesnt happen. Running seems to even out my moods and I get through the day feeling just fine. My husband thinks I’m Bipolar but Ive been told this is something that would have been detected years ago. Does anyone have any advice on what this is? am I Bipolar or am I just feeling the normal ups and downs of life??

Zulma October 12, 2011 at 7:07 am

To all who are on here, please see a medical doctor who has known u for some time. Ask them to reffer u to someone who can help u sort thru ur feelings and find out if there is a mental condition going on or not. Help is out there but if u don’t ask for help. . .u will not get help. Anyone who goes thru hellucinations or hears voices in their head are very urgently in need of help. . .I urge to seek help. Counselling, medications, or both can be of great use and may even save ur life, if treated early. Don’t hassitate or ponder to long. . .life is possible even when metally diagnosed. To those who are young still and can’t seem to speak to a parent, u can talk to a teacher, principle, school counsellor asking them for help. I scored 20 on here but nomatter what u score, there is always something wrong with u. . .not having bipolar is not an option on this test. So off to the Dr.’s I go:-). . .Good Luck everyone.

andrew November 4, 2011 at 6:38 pm

what if they dont listen, what if you have been to counselling and that didnt work, what if you have have been in a phsychiatric unit and there was no diagnosis other than a little depressed he will be ok

Liltank October 12, 2011 at 12:21 pm

My mood swings are so bad that my husband decided to take me to the hospital because he is scared for me and don’t know how to handle my very long crying spells. I am twenty sevens years old with four kids ranging from age 9 to 2. My life without bipolar is hard but with me having bipolar life is very difficult for me. This is my third time being hospitalized for this and this last time has raised a red flag. I am now going to check myself in to an institution and the hardest part for me is leaving my kids but I know thus is going to better me and my kids. To all of you that think you have bipolar get help immediately it will make your life a lot better. Good luck too all!

Karla October 13, 2011 at 4:28 am

Im In risk of bipolar spectrum disorder. my score was 36 and its true i am being very depressed, im only a teen i struggle with self harm such as cutting and a eating disorder i hate my body and myself im not skinny at all or pretty or good enough :(

MommaDee October 14, 2011 at 2:47 am

Well, I scored a 58. Not surprising to me at all. I was diagnosed as bipolar in June of this year. This was after years of seeing a psychiatrist for years dealing with depression and anxiety disorder. I would often tell my doctor that i felt like two different people. I feel like they are both battling to be the one that gets to run the show. When I am low, I am really low. I tried to overdose on Klonopin at one point. I was hospitalized for two days. This most recent incident had me so depressed that i woke up from my sleep crying one morning. I was sobbing. My mother told me to call someone, since she didn’t know what to do. I ended up being out of work for a total of two months. The first month, my doctor changed my depression medicine. This is what prompted my first “known” manic phase. Didn’t realize till later that this had happened to me before. I went on a sex binge. This is not something that i have seen many on here comment about. I go into these periods where sex is all that i can think of. I will drive for an hour and a half to meet someone that i have never met before just to have sex. I wouldn’t eat, and I was getting about three hours of sleep a night. When I told my doctor all of this, she finally stated that i was bipolar, told me to stop taking the medicine she had prescribed a month earlier, and gave me a new prescription. I was okay for a few months. I just finished another manic phase. Same thing, went on a sex binge. I spend so much money and on what, i don’t know. Gas, i guess. I realize that i need to stop when i am on a normal level. But when i am manic, it is like I just can’t stop. I know i need to go see my doctor so that she can make some adjustments to my meds. I just wanted to share a small piece of my experience. I know my doctor has made the right diagnosis. It just makes sense. I also see a therapist, but he was mainly for my anxiety disorder. I should probably find one that specializes in this.

Reading everybody’s testimonials has really been soothing. When you talk to people about being bipolar, they seem like they want to understand, but it something still very taboo. If more people would be open and honest about what truly plagues them, we would probably find that a large percent of the populace suffer from different degrees of the same condition. Not that everyone needs to be medicated, but education is key. I went for years thinking that I would need to change depression medications every two years for the rest of my life, just to find out this whole time only half of the issue was being addressed. I know how to recognize my depressions. N0w I just have to learn how to recognize the onset of my manic periods. I really need to do this before I make the wrong split-second decision that ends up costing me my life.

Robyn October 14, 2011 at 7:27 am

im 19 years old. i have taken a few of these test and i always get the same results, that i have bipolar disorder. in this case bipolar spectrum disorder. i started noticing signs of bipolar disorder when i was about 16/17 . when i was younger i thought about suicide alot but i thought it was caused by a troubled childhood. ive noticed when i get in to serious relationships my mood swings get worse and when i feel rejected my depression gets unbelievably bad. when i go out and about i feel fine happy, i joke around with friends, im very adventurous and out going but once im alone i take turn for the worse and after my last break up things have gotten extreamly bad i dont sleep, i turn to pills to drown out emotions. i havent gotten diagnosed by a doctor bcuz of fear but with they way things are going im wondering if i should. i know its not normal to think of suicide i keep hoping it will pass. wat should i do?

L October 14, 2011 at 3:07 pm

I think i have this. I’m having a mental health assessment soon due to my bulimia and i think i may bring this issue up. I know if i am normal and just over-exaggerating though and i don’t know if i would want help, as i love the highs i get – i feel that i am the greatest person in the world, i can do anything and everyone else can fck off!! I do this this is somethink i need to look at…

Jenna Rogers October 14, 2011 at 5:57 pm

Just in regards of any children having a bipolar parent: I am 22 yrs old and discovered some of theses symptoms myself as a young adult, with anger and depression extremes. From being a young child growing up i had an ok child hood, alcoholic father and mother endlessly working and with social life, as well as being a middle child. They say it doesnt matter , but it does. Point is, my father was diagnosed with bipolar disorder years ago, that i was un aware of, as im growing up dealing with it myself unknowingly that i had the disease as well. I can only warn parents if one parent has it , genetically proven majority of times the child will develop it. I wish i had know what was wrong with me growing up , it would have made life a lot easier in learning how to treat the mental illness. If you have children with biploar parents please get them tested in their sake, alot of times parents mistake the behavior as just bad behavior. Not true, as well as adults. Think of a drug addict, they deny they are addicted several times before and if ever hit recovery. The bipolar impairment in the brain is telling us that we are ok. , that ist’s just everyone else that has the problem. Not that the person doesnt want help but does not even know that their in that state of mind. Please, if people could learn more about this illness and be aware of how common it is now we know of the symptoms, please do not judge. for you do not know how it feels to be on top of the world and in a grave of your own life at the same time.

Aida October 16, 2011 at 3:28 am

I’m really not sure whether I have bipolar. Sometimes I feel like I really might but then I just think I must be looking for it. I mean, I definitely have some of the symptoms – the intense feelings of both happiness and sadness, the rapid change in mood, the really “wired” feelings, the decrease in sleeping/eating…

My sister has depression/anxiety and I feel like maybe having to deal with her and not being really “taken care of” like a child should be since I was so young has maybe had some sort of effect on me…then again, I’m still incredibly young (I’m only 14). I just feel really out of control all the time.

There are times when I feel so, SO motivated, like I can do ANYTHING and there’s no damn way I could fail and then there are times when I can’t even find the motivation to get out of bed in the morning. The only thing is, these mood swings last for a really long time. I experience extremely negative moods for a couple of months before it switches. In saying that, I feel a lot of different moods in just one day, but the dominant mood for that day stays the same.

Does anyone have some advice for me?

maurice October 17, 2011 at 10:07 am

i am sure my ex wife has bi-polar . she would go through excessive mood swings , works 20 hour days , for weeks on end , massive personality changes , one minute being the most loving caring person then the next accussing and screaming at me for little or no reason . these episodes would carry on for days on end , she would never sleep during them , she would obsevivly collect things , and then take to bed for days on end . i have seen 5 specialist doctors and they all said the same thing but the worst thing was the lastest , he knew nothing about her , i was describing situations which used to happen and then he started talking and saying the things she used to say . i asked him how he knew , he said they all talk like that. scarey . she has also hurt our children on many occasions , seriously , and yet ether denys it , carn’t remember it or is able to turn it round and talk her way out of it . yet injuryies to the kids keeps happening . her IQ is off the chart , yet sometimes the simplist thing is beyond her . when i think back on things some of it just seems silly or querky , like every house we have lived in i have come back from sea and had to refit all the door stops , she takes them off when i was away . so every house has had holes in the wall where the doors close . it’s a nothing thing really , i fix and forget it , it just keeps happening time and time again . i wake in the middle of the night , she is gone from our bed so i look around the house and usually find her curled up in the bathroom , babbling in africana . it takes an hour or so to get her back to bed , another hour to calm her and yet in the morning she will remember none of this . and on and on , some days you feel like you are the one going crazy , friends won’t come to visit , the chaos around the place is immense , i worry about my kids all the time in her company and yet am unable to get them away from her . she is an industrial chemist , she used to be at the top of her medical field in nz and the uk , has worked for the top drug companys in the world , never for longer than two years , yet when my youngest was admitted to hospital with a concussion while in her care told the admitting nurse the name of a company she worked for 30years ago ?

Jeane October 17, 2011 at 8:14 pm

I got a 28 on this thing. It says o am bipolar? I can’t be bipolar my bff is bipolar maybe I just got used to her behaivior and am just starting to act like her ?

Esther October 23, 2011 at 12:08 am

I’m terrified that I am bipolar, a friend spoke to me because he is worried about the way I have been acting and I know I have been feeling like something is wrong but I couldn’t put my finger on it… I’ve taken a few of these online tests because I’m worried to go to my GP in case I find out it’s right.. I’m beginning to think test scores of 51 out of 60 can’t be ignored… but I’m so worried it’s going to change my whole life :/

malaika brown October 24, 2011 at 9:56 pm

I’m 13 and bipolar. people think I’m over reacting but some times I can’t help but feel mad then sad . I’m cool with it though cause at least I know I’m not some rebellious teen or something.

Brian October 27, 2011 at 10:31 pm

Im 13 and some of my friends say i act like im bipolar. I studied a bit and bipolar seems to be very much like me. Sometimes i have so much energy at night i rearrange my whole room that night. Sometimes i am the fastest at gym class. But i am completely opposite of that. sometimes can barley stay awake at school. i am sluggish. In my mother side depression i common and in my father side psychosis defines them. My mother says i act different a lot.

If someone who has bipolar disorder or someone who is very familiar with this please help me.

josh October 28, 2011 at 8:50 am

im guessing since i got a 47 on this test that it is a bad thing?
a friend of mine told me i should take a test, almost all of the women in my family are legally crazy, most have split personalities, but some are what i would consider bipolar. if i understand what being bipolar is from reading up on things. could i have inherited it from them???

cassi October 29, 2011 at 6:00 pm

I am 15 years old and I have sufffered many ups and downs. My parents have noticed but i brought up the idea of maybe me being bipolar but they just pass it off as me being a hormonal teenager. But i think it’s worse than that, because at times I think of suicide and i won’t talk to anybody and I just want to be alone and forget my whole life, and other times I am so hyper and energetic that i won’t stop talking I get crazy creative ideas that don’t even make sense. I have lost friends as when on my ‘lows’ and kept the friends i have on their toes with some of my ‘highs’. How do i get a diagnosis if my parents don’t even believe me or my friends that i have bipolar? I took many online tests and have scored the chance of being bipolar but my parents won’t get me psychiatric help or even a diagnosis for it…what do I do??? Another thing i don’t think anybody in my family has ever had bipolar, only illness that i know I’ve gotten from my mom’s side of the family is sleep insomnia but that’s it.

Eros&Psyche October 30, 2011 at 1:20 pm

@cassi: The thing is with bipolar disorder is that it can show up at any time. I’ve had it ever since I can remember but I just didn’t realize it. I my mother was in denial for quite some time about the mere possibility I may have it, even though it has been in my family for years, along with other disabilities such as paranoid schizophrenia, clinical depression and chronic insomnia. Eventually I went through something similar to what little ole me! experienced with anti-depressants, but eventually I went into an episode after the ‘high’ mood clashed in a stunning fashion with a ‘low’ mood. That’s when I was finally brought to many specialists who quickly diagnosed me with manic depression, exactly what my mother had. Although the medications sometimes have the ill affects to make my head and feelings a bit muddled, I feel so much better than I had in a very long time, and I could finally see how long I’d suffered before treatment. Though bipolar disorder has been running in my family for generations, it does not always present itself just in bloodlines. And cassi? That sounds exactly what I’d gone through before treatment… you need to get help. Bipolar disorder had sent me into rages as a child leading me to do some very drastic, very stupid things in the name of pride, during both my ‘highs’ and ‘lows’. Find someone you trust, whomever that maybe, if it’s your grandma, school counselor or favorite stuffed animal; You need to let some of this out. The fact you may be bipolar isn’t something to brush off or take lightly. Find someone, and try and get a diagnoses as fast as you can.

Georgina Spour November 1, 2011 at 3:19 am

I’ve took many tests now online to see if i have bipolar disorder, one said i show very strong symptoms of bipolar type 1, this one said i most probably have bipolar spectrum disorder. I always knew there was something not quite right about my mood swings and depression episodes and i always tried to blame it on bad experiences in my life but fact is iv just switched MANY times for no apparant reason. when i was between ages of 13-18 i had times when i’d switch and have violent out burts, e.g. my brother was shouting at me and i apparantly grabbed his head and smashed it against the wall but i do not remember doing this at all, all i remember is aftermath he was sitting in front room holding his head crying cos his head was cut open.. bearing in mind he is 4 years older then me and 6ft 6 where i am 5ft 8

ash November 1, 2011 at 7:59 pm

I get really bad mood swings that are so bad a phycolgest wont even see me I really want help

britt November 2, 2011 at 9:08 pm

I’m 12, and I believe I am bipolar. My dad is bipolar (though I only just recently foungd this out) and I have abrubt mood changes. I’ll be perfectly fine one minute, and the next I will be crying over the tiniest little things. I also get really mad over little things very often, but in about 7-10 minutes I will be back to normal. I am really talkative sometimes, but that could just be the ADHD I also have. Even my friends and classmates are starting to notice. They keep asking me whats wrong in school. It is starting to effect my school work, for I have always been a very bright child. I am really getting tired of all these mood swings, and I don’t know what to do. Can someone out there please help?

britt November 2, 2011 at 9:10 pm

I even got a 40 on the test. Apparently, that is pretty bad. What do I do?

Maggie November 4, 2011 at 4:08 pm

OMG.. I GOT A 45.. IS IT BAD?

romina November 3, 2011 at 12:30 am

Iv just taken the bipolar self test as when im down i dont go to a doctor,iv scorred a high which means i may have it. My partner suffers badly with the disorder,i found many signs in him that i was experiencing. Im happy to now go to the doctor with my thoughts. Thanks to this test i have some peace of mind. Romina

Maggie November 4, 2011 at 4:06 pm

OMG!!!!
IS THIS LIKE ACURATE?? THE TEST SED I GOT A 45.. AM I BIPOLAR??? IS THAT BAD?? IS IT CURABLE??

andrew November 4, 2011 at 6:35 pm

i have been asking for help for past 2 years, only just realised bipolar is a possibility, just always thought i must be a bad person but confused as i would help anyone out even if i didnt know them. been to doctors, been in pshyciatric unit, but no joy, seems unless you go on the rampage and cause some real damage nobody seems to listen,(not that i would, just an analogy) can anyone tell me where to go to get help that doesnt involve being on a waiting list for years only to be forgotten and not followed up. ive tried, docs, hospital, foiled suicide, need help, sad that ive asked for it now im writing on here dont you think

nuvia November 4, 2011 at 8:51 pm

You scored a total of 55 which may indicate bipolar spectrum disorder.

RAMONA JENSEN November 6, 2011 at 3:45 am

I HAVE SEVERAL FAMILY MEMBERS AFFLICTED WITH THIS CONDITION. I AM TERRIFIED THAT I HAVE IT TO. ACCORDING TO THIS I SHOULD PROBABLY GO TO THE DOCTOR AND GET EVALUATED. I AM NERVOUS TO TELL MY HUSBAND THAT HIS WIFE MY HAVE A MENTAL ILLNESS BECAUSE OF THE HORRIBLE STIGMA THAT IS ATTACHED TO THEM. ANY SUGGESTIONS?

ellie November 8, 2011 at 12:25 pm

I got a 54…..oh boy.well i have a doctors appointment in liek 2 weeks….i think this is actually what I have cuz it all started when i was liek 14…and it usually starts when you are 15….3 years of major depression, constant mood swings…..yah..life sux…its not good….only attempted suicide a dozen times…yah..i need help…

Nyorker November 9, 2011 at 5:26 am

Hi, I reached 59 in the test and a high score in others as well. I’m a 30yo man and I almost sure I’m suffering this disorder all that I know is this is killing me but I don’t want to share with anyone because they won’t think I have a problem. Also, I’m scared to get a treatment that make me dependable and can not control myself and my feelings I’m soo confused, I’m scared and I don’t want to worry any family member or friends.

I don’t know if I’m acting wrong because I know is a serious problem when im actually thinking of suicide and I lost interest in life and any other activities that were important for me before.
I know I’m not the only one in the world with this situation but I know it is hard and sometimes make me feel guilty and with no future or perspectives of living like just right now.

pandora November 10, 2011 at 9:51 am

Dear Nyorker,

I understand and know how you feel. I hope somebody can enlighten us with what we are going through.

Jack November 10, 2011 at 7:53 am

Im dealing with this illness i hate when ppl say i use it as an excuse for how i act not like i can help it. I dont like the way i am inside but i know ill never be normal again ive been on every med u can be on and nothing seems to work for me. And ppl dont understand unless there the same as me inside.

pandora November 10, 2011 at 9:47 am

I have not seen a doctor but took online tests several times and scored high. This depression is an on and off thing for me for more than 10 years now. I know I have bipolar depression and it’s really on a higher level. Now, I have been depressed for more than 2 weeks and this depression is getting worse as the person I love the most is gradually moving away from me by giving me a cold treatment, saying that it would help me let go of my dependency towards him. I said so many times that it’s not helping at all. I never liked the feeling of losing someone (I still haven’t gotten over the death of my dad and even my dogs and it has been 14 years now). More to that, I have also not been talking to people like I used to. Having my own space is important to me but this time I want to be left alone all the time. I have committed suicide a number of times. When times like this comes, I greatly feel slashing my wrist little by little because it eases the sadness and pain somehow (may it be a delusion but it helps me). But now, the depression is so great that I have not been my usual self, I lost my drive, spirit and being. I have lost interest to live.

I know it’s not the end of the world and I shouldn’t be feeling like this, but I do not know what to do. Is there really a need to seek professional help?Is this really a serious case or plainly depression. This depression made the people I love turn away from me. I don’t have a reason to live anymore. How do I help myself? I hope somebody would answer me.

divinewaterrat November 30, 2011 at 2:17 pm

I think you should try and get some help if you are feeling suicidal Perhaps the person couldn’t cope with your problems and it is not about not loving you. I think you are in a cold place where you are not in touch with your warm heart but it is there somewhere and you need help to get back.

Gemma November 12, 2011 at 4:19 am

hi was wondering if anyone could help pls i cnt cope : basically i am 17 and was abused twice 1st ime was by my stepdad, i was 15 and he was 34 2nd was by my older brother 20 i am 17 they both were delt with by the police my brother is on the sex offenders register and my step dad got away with it , i keep getting these dreams i get to a point where i cnt sleep and where i go through every morning thinking same crap diffrent day . i could just be sitting there and suddly cry and think my life is over and everything i do is wrong and everything is my fault , my score was 35 on here and i just seem to be wanting to do new things most days and i have to havemy own space or i get really angery i have a bf but he don’t understand he thinks i am being silly when i break dwn and cry .i blame myself every dan and am constaltly self judgement i am contantly thinking to myself, i must be a bad person. i could be sitting there tlking to my bf and go off in to another planet and then all of a sudden just g absoluitly mental i have sudden outbursts of hyperactivity and have not be diognosed with ADHD but my older brother has it and so does one of my younger sisters i am really worried as it causes a strain on my relationship we have been togetther fo 8 months and have split up twice and gt back togethere i went through a stage of actually self halming i would take a blade to my wrist because i feel like i am a mistake and there is no reason for me to be here i really need help as it’s scaring the cra outta me and i wanna know if it’s bipolar or not pls someone help me xx

Martha November 13, 2011 at 3:17 am

Hi Gemma. First, it is NOT YOUR FAULT that you were abused. You are a wonderful, caring person who is probably suffering from post traumatic stress syndrome which is why you suddenly begin to cry and feel the way you do.

If there was a police officer or counselor in school who helped you, ask for a social worker or therapist to speak to. Talking to someone and going to support groups to meet other girls who have experienced the same as you, will help you tremendously and make you feel better in time.

Do not feel like it is your fault and you should go on like this for your life. It is so important to speak to someone.

nicole November 22, 2011 at 7:28 pm

Gemma I know that exact feeling feel free to email me I’m 18 and can relate, corteznicole33@yahoo.com

cianna November 12, 2011 at 11:47 pm

i wish i was dead.

Martha November 13, 2011 at 3:11 am

Cianna, I’m so sorry you feel like that. You should definitely talk to someone right away. Even if you feel like no one will understand or will be able to help you, please try — don’t give up. With the right help, you WILL feel better in time.

Please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.

Reach out to someone, anyone, and give it some time to feel better. You deserve to live a long, happy life and you can and will. I know it doesn’t feel like it now, but you are loved. You have so much to offer. And you will feel better about yourself and your life.

Please reach out to someone.

danielle November 14, 2011 at 10:34 pm

my result was 49, i am definitely sure that i am suffering from some sort of depression, all the symptoms sum me up to a t, i do not want medical help because it will effect my dream career having this on my medical, record, does anyone know where i can get help without going to my GP… I have no doubt that i have bi-polar, however I wont allow it to control my life, please if someone knows where i can get help discreetly it would be much appreciated

Lauren November 16, 2011 at 4:05 am

i am 13 and i am not TRULY close with anyone… my friends see me as bubbly and out going… they don’t know what i deal with at home. i feel like no one gets me. i have 3 brothers and no sisters so it is really hard for me to relate, and me and my mom fight a lot. sometimes i just get so mad i just want to be left alone, and then she leaves and i am just left there to cry. she doesn’t try and help me or anything. i scored a 45… what does this mean?

Jason G November 16, 2011 at 4:07 am

Just went to my first doctor today-even more confused than before-29 yrs old-bipoar grandfather and mother (his daughter) next appt friday-very anxious -and irritated in general-loking for suggestions on how to release stress without alcohol or breaking things of fighting-thanks for your help-Jason

siggywoman November 17, 2011 at 1:52 am

I know thati have bipolar. Disorder. It sucks. Been in bed for. 4 days. I have no friends but n a Fay it 2 I’ll go shopping like crazy & just ho wild. I really nerf help._

siggywoman November 17, 2011 at 1:55 am

I scored. A 49 on the test.

holly November 17, 2011 at 5:06 am

i scored a 53 & im 15..

angela jones November 17, 2011 at 2:43 pm

ADD runs in my family. I have 3 children that have been diagnosed with the disorder. I have always been very easily distracted and have a very hard time concentrating at work. I have been on meds for ADD for about 2 years now, they help for concentration but make me feel slightly manic at the same time. I am also very irritable and have frequent mood swings. I recentley stumbled on an article on Bipolar disorder and It seemed to describe much of the behavior I display. I wonder if I was misdiagnosed.

robert pattinsons wife November 17, 2011 at 7:14 pm

WHO CARES!
I AM BIPOLAR AND IM PROUD OF IT!!
i’M BIPOLAR AND IM PROUD.
i’M BIPOLAR AND IM PROUD
ILL TURN MY FROWN UPSIDE DOWN.
JUST GO WHAT LADY GAGA SAYS “baby i was born this way”

adolfo castaneda November 17, 2011 at 7:52 pm

i think i know im bi polar and its getting scarry cause the depressions getting worse and im less able to cope with stuff. i scored a 44 what do you think

Ben Grennan November 19, 2011 at 5:15 pm

Oh 32 i dont care forget life fuck sake

ConfusedinCA November 20, 2011 at 3:18 am

I have have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for 4 years. He can be such a wonderful person, very caring, good with my children and then the next day he becomes mean, irrational, insulting and flip flops on promises. When he is stressed he blames me for anything that is wrong. I can ask him how he day is and he will bite my head off and accuse me of being controlling. I’ve asked him to seek help. He realises that he is not”normal” but I don’t think he will go and talk to someone. I want to love him but how can I continue?

Ella November 20, 2011 at 5:42 am

Every single time I take these quizzes, I always come up with a “very likely” or “severe” diagnosis.
I’m diagnosed as ADHD but I’ve noticed lately the massive changes in my moods. I’ll go between super happy and social to locking myself in my room and doing nothing (literally, NOTHING). I’m 18, and I feel like my depression gets worse and though I don’t feel suicidal anymore, I just feel overwhelmingly hopeless. I have a hard time in relationships, too. I’ll be friendly and happily with a partner then BAM! Something clicks inside my head where I don’t want to be with them any more and get quick tempered and aggressive towards them. It turns into such an animosity where, in my head, I want to cause them pain. I really do my best not to act on this because how fucking irrational it is. I’ll don’t do this with friendships so much, but it does happen. Sometimes I cannot stop thinking about sex and am willing (once again, don’t act on this) to sleep with anyone that comes along, even if I literally just had sex. It’s like hyperhorny. Then at other times my libido plummets to zero.
I’m so goddamn frustrated. I can’t even hold my train of thought on my medication sometimes (Concerta 36mg x1day). When I talk to my doctor, she assures me it’s just my ADHD but I really don’t feel like it is.

nicole November 22, 2011 at 7:32 pm

Ella u described my life, we can definently relate if u ever need anyone to talk to email me at anytime corteznicole33@yahoo.com :)

Courtney November 20, 2011 at 9:28 pm

I scored 43. I’m calling my doctor tomorrow to make an appointment. I have been sabotaging my marriage and I just need help!!

Marie November 21, 2011 at 4:14 pm

I can really relate to the stories my better half of 17yrs finally went got help tis starting to help somewhat he still has his moments of beenin very hostile&ill.he will get ill with me or our son then next minute start laughing&joking like nothing ever happened.can anyone relate to this???also my family don’t understand this diease,they tell me all the time WHY DO U PUT UP HIM?Or they’ll ask me u think he really loves u,the way he actsor treats u?I know he does How can I make them Understand more???any suggestions????PLEZ HELP!!

highs and lows of having bipolar November 22, 2011 at 10:20 am

If you feel or know someone that have conditions of bipolar beyond normal depression, anxiety and upset. I highly suggest seeing a outpatient facility and or setting up an appointment. From there, you will see an intake, case manager, doctor and or doctor assistant, nurse and often meeting with your case manager and those listed as I mention. You maybe entitled to claim disability through social security. If taken seriously like not being able to get up, work, understand rules, taking drugs, thinking of suicidal thoughts, sexually active(highly), getting fired, staying home, chronic pains, anxiety, depression, relationship problems, cheating, lying, hyperactive, isolated etc then your an risk to humane society and can cause things you didn’t intentionally mean then against yourself, friends, girlfriend/ boyfriend, family, etc. You deserve the right to know your problem. Only you can fix yourself, with help. I advise, you do this step further to prevent further regretful actions. Especially, if there’s kids involved. Your kids can carry this condition as well! Good luck and best wishes.

nicole November 22, 2011 at 7:09 pm

just took this test and scored a 40 which terrifies me because deep inside I always had the feeling I was because my brother and I always have anger outbursts. Can usually be very happy but our moods will change around 20 times a day to happy and full of rage on anyone that comes in the way.I have periods of great depression and times where I feel extremely lonely.I have no idea what to do I’m only 18 and feel as if I tried to go to peers for help it wouldn’t get me far because ide feel like I’m being judged. So can someone please help me.

worried November 23, 2011 at 2:12 am

i have been thinking if i might have some sort of bipolar. i wake up everyday miserable, then switch to feeling like im on top of the world. an hour later i feel overwhelmed with the day to day hustle. Usually im okay but when someone says the wrong thing or does the wrong thing, i have very big mood swings. for example, if someone would say something that alot of people would just brush off, i usually take it to heart and break down upset alone. ive often thought of horrible things. also when someone makes me mad i get angry easily. i know i have something wrong, but to afraid to go and find out. On top of what i have i KNOW for a fact that my boyfriend has something also. some days hes the greatest man and on these days i am so happy that i met him. on somedays every little thing that happens to him, he ends up blaming me or switching the whole story to our relationship and how its “not working anymore”. he says this and other things all over little things like if he burnt his toast. (didnt really happen but the point is, is that its a little thing to get mad over and tell the woman you have been with for 7 years you dont love her anymore.) i know if we both have it his is more severe than mine. its also in his family too. my father had bipolar also to the point where he distanced himself from people. i know i would be able to get enough guts to go to the doctor but how would i explain to my boyfriend that this would be best for him to go also? HELP!

kane hickey November 23, 2011 at 4:31 am

had a crapy day so thought id take this test sore of 52 was no great shock, I always thought that the highs and lows I have are from the headache I have had for my whole life so brushed it off, always have taken my moods as my way of dealing with the pain im in every day, not sure what this will mean to me prob nothing id say, after all how does a 38 year old exs bouncer tell people about his feelings and what battle is going on in my head, most days I chuck on my fake smile and am known as the life of the party, im not strong enough to deal with what comes with admitting you need help, I have spent my whole life taking my pain out on the ones I love the most not to the point of violence just being snappy and stand offish, hide in my art work and use that a reason to be alone, to anyone that is living with someone like myself my heart goes out to you all I have days when being around me is far from fun to say the least, and im sure its hard for people to get there head around or understand, people who now me and care about me know how much pain I am in most of the time and have come to believe that it is just im in pain, over the last four years or so I am a changed person as far as they know I make a point of not taking it out on anyone I care about and spend a lot of time alone to keep others safe from me I would never hit or hurt any of them but I can do so much damage with my words, over the years a lot of people I don’t know in clubs and motor bike club I used to be in be put in a lot of pain from me and the shear size I am, I have never talked about this not sure why im ok with doing it here.. to anyone going threw this don’t be like me don’t blame everyone else you care about get help people love and care for you and will not think less of you for reaching out don’t be like me don’t hide, and to all the wife’s mothers daughters out there that live with someone like me it may not seam like it at times but you really are the light in our lives, best times in my life are when I am around family and loved ones most of the time your head is telling you, you don’t deserve to be loved and the world and everyone you care about would be better off without you, so we push you away because we love you and don’t want to see you hurt that’s why I do to all the people I love and care for sorry SORRY MUM I LOVE YOU thanks for the outlet

divinewaterrat November 30, 2011 at 2:32 pm

On the outside you sound like a tough guy but the toughest thing you could do is be vulnerable like you have just been and perhaps that is where you’ll get your help and solution.
Congratulations!

steph November 24, 2011 at 7:05 am

Hi i am 21yrs old and have suffered with depression for as long as i can remember. It comes and goes but each time it comes back, it seems to get worse. Also i can be quite agressive towards my boyfriend and cant understand why he would want to be with me after the way i have tret him. We hav been together 4yrs and have grown very distant (aswell as my family). We use to live together but my mood swing caused problems and because i felt soooo guilty for the way i tret, o i asked him to get a place of his own. I am scared i will push him away and he is th only person i have left. I am scared to go to docs, but hav made an appointment because my boyfriend wont drop th fact i might have bipolar or some other disorder. What will happen at this appointment and if i am diagnosed with bipolar can they take my daughter away! Because thats th worst that could happen. She is the light at the end of the tunnel and dont no wot i would do without her. X

N. November 24, 2011 at 8:58 pm

I got 32… I don’t really know if I am bipolar but as some people above have described symptoms and characteristics that can relate to me. Lately my emotions and thoughts have been out of it. I’m 14 and of course I’m teenager going through hormonial stages but there are times I’m just so happy and hyper, then next I’m irritable, angry and I tend to leave to get isolation. Those times scare me beause they’re on and off (sort of like on impulse), I also get headaches along with it. Then I start crying…I get so depressed and sometimes I think of things I know I shouldn’t think of. So far I’ve been able to control myself but now I just can’t. My stress levels are just so high especially with the pressure I have been receiving in my life. Am I bipolar or something else? Do I need help? No one in my family has had it…I think.

Josh December 4, 2011 at 8:23 pm

Hey, I am 14 and I feel exactly the same :’(
I got 52 and I am so confused about what I should do :’(

darren g November 24, 2011 at 11:01 pm

my wife and i seperated for 1 year due to her mood swings and flying of the handle we have 3 childrenand we have agreed to to get back together not only for the kids but because we love one another my wife has been going for counselling and they have picked up that she has bipolar i cant even begin to tell you what a huge diffs its made in our relationship we are now leading a normal life thank God for wisdom and also for making me realise that there is hope for all of us.

catherine November 25, 2011 at 6:27 pm

im 14 years old and i think i might have bipolar i regularly kick off for no apparent reason, i have regular mood swing no one has metioned me might haveing bipolar but i think i might have it and i am scared to talk to my dad about it cause hes just going to say im being stupid and i cant talk to my mam because shes not with us no more HELP!!!

Hallam December 4, 2011 at 8:19 pm

Hey Catherine,
I am 14 and I really do know how you feel :(
My parents are divorced and my life is fucked beyond reason and I never told anyone because I was scared they wouldn’t listen an they would just say I was attention seeking :’(
But talking to someone really helps.
Trust me, your dad will understand, because no matter how fucking annoying and mean parents seem, they will always be there for their kids.

jinx November 26, 2011 at 6:08 am

My mother has been trying for ages to make me realise that there is something wrong with me, yet I never believed her untill recently. I couldn’t figure out why I do some of the thing I do and then why I want to kill myself for doing them. I find myself asking the question… What is normal am I crazy??? I feel so alone! I need help but where will it come from! Well… I guess it is true what they say, no one can help you unless you realise that you need help, hopefully I’ll get it now before it’s to late. I don’t want to hurt my son because of this problem! I want to be there for him and care for him till I die.

Josh November 30, 2011 at 6:26 am

You do feel alone and helpless with it. It is the depression part. In our minds, we feel like we cannot turn to anybody, and that takes us down further, but there is always someone to turn to, it just takes us a while sometimes to see that. Praying hard for you.

Princess Hazel November 27, 2011 at 5:34 pm

ive been diagnosed as bipolar since 13 and im 21. maybe a wrong diagnoeess???? Im insane. i hurt animals. i obsessivly masturbate. i get overly happy then majorly depreesed. i think about killing people. i want to be a princess! Help?? I cut my wrists too. i drink and do drugs. whats going on???¿¿¿¿

Diana November 28, 2011 at 6:44 am

I’m 14, I heard about Bipolar and looked it up and I had all the symptoms.Then I took this test and i got a 44 that means have bipolar spectrum disorder.

Darren November 28, 2011 at 1:37 pm

I think I am bipolar, all the symptoms fit. At times I’m on a high and just a people person then there are times that I just want to be by myself and become agitated and very hostile towards my loved ones. What should I do?

DS November 29, 2011 at 1:39 am

I cut my wrist, i have an eating disorder, I have some days when i’m happy and many days when i just absolutely HATE everything and I just wanna die. I also think about killing people and killing myself, i had actually tried killing me self one time ,but as you can see it i’m still alive… I have convinced myself that I am one of the ugliest persons alive and that i’m fat too. My self confidence is super super low, the sliest thing sets me off, I get very very angry with EVERYONE!!! Even when someone is joking about something I still end up crying or angry. Like if they say ” your just fat! JK JK haha” I still feel like that just kidding was a lie and their really calling me FAT! I can’t count how many days I’ve cried myself to sleep. One time i had cried so much that when i went to go look in the mirror my face was so pale my eye’s were swollen my face looked like it got the life sucked out of it, i looked like i was dead. I has thought to my self “how could i be more horrifying then i already am.”
I have mutilated my wrist, my arms, and my legs. I can’t stop it’s like a drug, it so attictting. As i said before i also have an eating disorder, but somehow i just can’t lose the weight which makes me throw up even more.
I have scary, violent, blood, creep, unusual thoughts in my mind mostly all the time as well as dreams. For some reason I like the fact that i’m bipolar, I wanna brake one of my bones, I wanna have a life- threatening sickness like cancer or tuberculosis or something like that, i wanna go to the hospital, i wanna see blood, besides mine. I wanna be a ghost and possess people and haunt them. I wanna make people fell my pain.
Sometime all of that is out of my mind and i’m happy, but not inside. Inside i hurt. Behind my smile is a girl who just want to be noticed, accepted, loved, and feel like i was born to be somebody and i was born to make a difference. I don’t want to be known as Miss always invisible. I want to talk to someone who understands and who will listen and will be my friend. I want someone i can trust ,someone i can feel safe with, someone i can look up to, i just need someone. I need help , but I DON’T want it!!! I wanna feel like this, its like i’m living two life’s and my dark side is over coming my bright side. And I know this is hard to believe, but i’m only 14 and of this started happening a long time ago and it’s still going on.

One day i wrote this poem right before I tried to commit suicide.
-Someday
Someday i’ll realize what they’er saying is not true.
Someday i’ll realize I’m beautiful too.
Someday i’ll realize i don’t have to cut to take the pain away.
Someday i’ll realize i don’t have to flush what I ate today.
Someday i’ll realize i have a family who cares.
someday i’ll realize that they will always be there.
But to bad someday was already too late.
I thought suicide was my only fate.
-D.S.

Mama K December 3, 2011 at 6:46 pm

Sweetheart, I don’t know if I can be any help to you at this time because I am in a depression I haven’t felt in a long time, but I KNOW how you are feeling. I know my depression started at around age 11. My mother called it the “blues” that “women get at that time of month” but I knew better. I don’t want to get long winded, so I’ll skip to when my bp decided to present itself. I was 37, and boy was it ugly. That need to bleed…I would pick at my face so I could see blood and be scarred to show the world how I felt on the inside. My job was somewhat physical and I would “accidently ?? cause scrapes and cuts on my body so I could pick them.
The weird thing is, is picking, feeling the pain, and seeing the blood is what made me feel like I was still alive and that pain helped distract me from the REAL pain I was in.
I do understand those feelings and maybe the Lord kept me alive last night just to tell you, you are loved and very precious. I don’t know why God keeps me alive, I did try to commit suicide AGAIN last night but here I am, and although we don’t really know each other, I want you to know I love you and If you need to talk I am here…maybe you are the angel God sent me today so I can face another day…

ariana November 29, 2011 at 6:27 am

I think i might be bi polar whats the first step to take to get help.

Josh November 30, 2011 at 6:21 am

I have been told I have PTSD and more than likely General Anxiety. Now they are tossing Bi-polar in the mix. I have a HUGE fear of taking meds, because I do not want them to dictate my life, have the feeling like I am a robot. I do not know what to think about this. I do not get mean or anything, it is mostly lack of motovation, having trouble staying focused, and mood swings from one extreme to another. Maybe I am in denial about it? I just am looking for support through all this and to be able to get through it.

Josh November 30, 2011 at 6:30 am

Only one that can make these decisions is ourselves. In life, the most imporant person we look over, besides our kids if you have any, is ourselves. We cannot fix other people until we get ourselves fixes. Like for me example, I can give great advice, but I sometimes have trouble taking my own. I hope everything works out great for you. GOD Bless.

alyssa November 30, 2011 at 6:57 am

I think I may be bipolar and its ruining my relationship

deanne sluchak November 30, 2011 at 6:07 pm

I scored 55 that isnt good.

Kayla December 1, 2011 at 2:09 am

I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and it is not fun at all. There are times where i would be extremely depressed, or very angry for no reason, and it would just switch to the complete opposite mood a little while later. I feel bad for the things that i do and say when i’m in those moods..I’m on medication for it now and i’m feeling more myself than i used to. I feel like i did when i was younger. It’s great.

Mica December 1, 2011 at 12:11 pm

I scored 49 on this
Ive changed throughout this year and its not a good changed its all things listed above like really bad mood swings, where i could be crying with laughter but in a second crying of sadness and thinking of suicide ..
Some mornings i wake up having had hardly any sleep, but ill have the most amazing amount of energy but others i will wake up and just cry and i wont be able to bring myself to even get up or ready for college, which is obviously affecting my attendance and well my college grades.
Im 16 and this has happened before when i was 13 but it seemed to be better so i didn’t go any further into finding out what was wrong.
This time its worse, i’ve completely thrown all of my friends away because of it and i’ve ruined my relationship with my constant mood changes, when i’m low everything is wrong with my life and i think of ways to end my life and i self harm, i finish my boyfriend when i’m like this or hit scream and push him around and to be honest i don’t mean any of it and when its all over and im happy im on top of the world and i take it all back and my life is perfect and i feel like im the most amazing person on the planet and i can do nothing wrong.
I zone out most of the time when people are speaking to me and i have no concentration levels at all.
Its frustrating me :/ i dont mean to do the things i do, say the things i do bite peoples heads of for asking simple questions when im in these moods
Sometimes they get so bad that my body actually breaks down and i feel unresponsive to anything, like im asleep but awake at the same time
I don’t know what to do i just want my life back to normal and i don’t know how or even whats wrong
Im feeling low right now and i just feel like crying and breaking down and giving up on everything, im at college and i feel like everyone around me is watching my every move speaking about me even if i can hear their conversation and i know their not
I like being with people alot but most of the time i just want to be on my own because i dont want anyone to see me in the moods i am
I’ve trying to hide it all from my mum taking my self into my room most of the time but now shes starting to notice and i dont want her to be as frustated with me as my boyfriend is
I cant keep going on like this and i dont know what to do :/
if anyone could help it would be amazing :/

Ophelia December 2, 2011 at 2:41 am

I scored 55 /60
Im 20 years old.
I’m known for being a stupidly bubbly hyperactive and artistic individual, but I repeatly find myself in a suicidal state.

I’ve always felt wrong, and different from everyone else.
Sometimes I could discribe it like having “two brains”

It was suspected I was bi-polar, but thenIwas told it wasnt the week after.
I’ve refused antidepressants because ive seen what theyve done to other family members, and while Im not exactly coping atm, id like to remain not coping because of well.. reality rather than added chemicals.
If when a doctor actually listens to me, and says i need them i might consider but till now I just want to find someone who will actually listen.

I think it just feels worse than it is because my aunt has her own violent moodswings and doesnt suppourt me in this whatsoever.

Amanda December 2, 2011 at 6:59 am

Just a few hours ago I was sitting down to talk to my mom about all the issues I’ve noticed within myself. I now have a new understanding for people with bipolar disorders. My mother, brother, and sister have all been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder. I listed all my problems to my mom: impulse shopping, taking the purchases back the next day, knowing I was gonna take it back but still buy it. I have a “running commentary” in my head. Extremely indecisive. Can’t set a small goal and reaching it. Zone out into my thoughts. Excessive sleeping. Putting myself down. Always feeling guilty. –that’s a lot to take in for a 19 year old girl. So, thank you everyone for your comments! It’s made me decide to get help. I want to feel normal again! I can’t wait.

Adalila December 3, 2011 at 3:39 am

I scored 55 that’s not good. I thought it was fake but when I saw the scars on my wrist all the way to my upper arm I knew it was real. Thank u god bless

Emzyz December 27, 2011 at 11:14 pm

i got the exact same score as you. the real coincedince is the fact that i have scars on wrist to :/

Thermite46 December 4, 2011 at 8:05 pm

Hi,
I am 16, and I am convinced my boyfriend is bipolar. He is stressed for no reason all the time and he can’t stop self harming and HE WANTS HIS LIFE TO END AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! :’(
He has all the signs and symptoms of bipolar disorder; he hallucinates, he talks really fast without meaning to, he is really happy and then he’ll flip out and go crazy for no reason, and he thinks about sex all the time, even when it’s not with me :’( It’ll be with literally anyone he likes as a friend :’( He thinks about it even with people he doesn’t want to do it with! He just can’t help it and I don’t know what to do please please help! :’(

James December 5, 2011 at 5:37 am

What is it about this world? Its crazy, and we have to take it all in every day, this competition we’ve made for ourselves. Who do we live for? We live for our relationships with others don’t we? Happiness. Shared moments. Creativity. Engaging with someone, a feeling that another human has truly understood you. Communicating and being fair. Maintaining relationships. The desire to be alone has backfired several times and I could tell years ago what would happen to me. I asked for my current position with all the choices I made. I lost people. Friends and lovers. Because of my confusion about my position in the world and whether it was deemed worthy (by my own standards) I became angry at the restrictive way life is set up. This further fuelled my diassociation with mainstream society. I think,…when you think, you’re in trouble! People would say to me in discussions, “If you don’t like something change it”. How do you change your whole world? Obviously i agree what i hold is only my perception of the world based on the experiences i’ve had.
But my EXPECTATIONS of life are much higher. I genuinely think that socially interactive media is to blame. Advertising. Creating scenes. People so out of touch with a product they’ve created they hire someone else to sell it. There is so much to aspire to be in this world that there is so much you can’t do. I guess i am a glass half empty guy. I’m just disappointed. Afraid of what i’ve been born into, and afraid that i wont be able to justify the struggle. All i want to do is create beautiful representations of my own pain and for want of a better word, disagreement with the world. I accept there’s no way we could exist without money, greed or power. Then there would be no competition. No collective reason or forward motion. And the world would be reduced. Rat race

This is pretty much where i’m at and why i get down, i just get fucked off at things around me im helpless to change which yeah admittedly is a waste of energy but how can i turn it into positivity when i see no angle i want to represent in modern culture. No job i can do that will bring me the balance of life i need. I may be a bit selfish but i think im just lonely and need someone to trust. I think and i feel and im a sensitive considerate person on this earth but its making me ill. I scored a 34 on this. I’m not going to take the result seriously as its not a diagnosis but what I am going to do is take babysteps forward with my life, try find a girl and a reason.

A lot of people who have written on here have been fantastically honest and open. I admire you all and hope for the best. James

john December 5, 2011 at 5:39 pm

I’m having alot of problems with my mind I have alot of different conversations in my head at the same time and they are all different but I hear both people talking. All of this happens at the sametime.I also have a problem with something in my head that causes me do do wrong things I can be so happy with my life and marriage then in a sec would be wanting attintion from other women I don’t want to be with them at all just want the attintion I lived a wild and crazy life before I got married and at times for no reason at all something in my head triggers and pulls me back into it I don’t want that felling in me what could it be it has caused my marriage to end someone please help me please

:/ December 8, 2011 at 12:56 am

i feel exatly the same and i hat it i have to stop myself but i get the voice in my head telling me things like she wats you and stuff and i carnt stop it i dont get it as much now i used to get it (at worst) 5 -6 times a day and i just carnt stop it sometimes i feel like quagmire

Gabby101 December 5, 2011 at 11:29 pm

I got a score of 32 and it said I have a probability of being BiPolar. Quite honestly, I’ve always wanted to go into rehab. There are these random periods of time where I am literally at the point of throwing myself under a car and dying. My parents are all like “You’re overeacting; stop it. You’re spoiled.” Quite honestly I think that they don’t exactly understand what I feel.

marty December 6, 2011 at 4:55 pm

Hi im 24 and think i have bipolar i am attending hospital and have not been diagnosed yet. I suffer severe moodswings going from happy to sad or enraged and sometimes even lost n confused. Some days i cnt even get out of bed. my sex drive is through the roof most times. It caused me to blieve i was gay and i left her knowing i was madly in love with her to have a string of men and then leading into a handful of transwomen and i came out of it and realised i was actually in love and attracted to my ex girlfriend. I get so depressed that i actually lay the tablets out to overdose myself and have to fight with myself not to do it i also feel like iv lost control of my mind and its being controlled by evil. At times everything seems to be going very fast and i feel like im standing still. I have no reason to feel depressed but i still hit rock bottom with manic depression. I cnt interact with people or concentrate on things most times with spells of feeling on top of the world and invincible but i always come crashing back down. My moods effect my girlfriend n family as i be rude or nasty not meaning to then i cry for ages over doing every1 wrong. I also randomly cry for no reason and take suicidal moods. Any1 any advice?

jennifer December 12, 2011 at 7:07 am

Seek out God. Maybe you don’t believe in God or you believe in something else and no your life wont be perfect if you give your life to God but He will help you carry your load. He loves you even if you dont love Him and He says that anyone who believes He sent His Son Jesus to die for your sins and accepts Him into your heart will go to heaven. He doesnt expect you to be perfect and it doesnt matter if you think your not worth enough. Nobody is worth His love, thats the point. He gives us His love despite our sins and flaws.

shandan December 6, 2011 at 11:08 pm

How do I convince my boyfriend to get help ? He is destroying my life and has no sympathy for the way he treats me I can stay calm for so long but I am loosing it! I’m going to be the one needing meds here soon

zoey December 7, 2011 at 11:36 am

I have a 24 year old son who was told he was bipolar in 2006,when he tried to kill himself,he would not listen,he then told me he was gay and that is why he acted the way he did.He has had his major ups and downs,he just recently moved back in with my husband and i after a relationship he was in ended.Sometimes he sleeps for days,other times he is up all the time.One minute he is happy and the next he is calling me names and yelling,he never sais he is sorry,he does not care about anyone around him,and it is like he likes to hurt peoples feelings.His sexual behavior is irresponsible,and he shares way to much with me.He gets in these moods where he will ignore me and then suddenly go off.I try to talk to him but it is like he is in a different world.

:/ December 8, 2011 at 12:48 am

# zoey i feel the same way as your son all the time bar being gay but i can never sllep correctly i normaly have about 3 maybe 4 hours sleep a night soom nights ill sit watching tv laughing away and the next night ill be laying in bed with a weird voice in my head with a pasifier because it comferts me so much i have to carry it around wih me. im only 16 and have thourt about killing sooo many people over the years its unbelievabal i hate it so much but i dont know were to get help cus i know my parents wont listen i dont even tell them about the dummie let alone any problems. can someone help please? sorry about spelling really teired but carnt get to sleep (plue dyslexic :)

jennifer December 12, 2011 at 7:02 am

I dont think hearing voices is a symptom of bipolar but if your hearing voices you still need to talk to someone (a doctor) about it, especially if you think about killing people. I know if your crying out for help now, then you dont want to go as far as killing someone. If you dont want to talk to your parents, talk to a counselor at your school or go to a free clinic and talk to someone. I’m sure the reason you dont want to talk about it anyone is because you feel like they would call you crazy but a sickness of the brain is just the same as a sickness to any other part of the body. You must seek help though! Don’t let it come to hurting yourself or anyone else, please, please, please. That’s what medicine is for. God loves you just as He loves everyone else. He doesn’t want you to suffer.

AnonJ December 9, 2011 at 10:56 pm

I rated a 35. I have been on Anxiety medication for 10+ years. I have had a strong feeling something else was wrong a very long time ago but my doctor doesn’t seem to want to address it. I have no insurance but he sees me for free and I don’t think anyone else out there would do that.

Lately I have been very angry and argumentative with the people I love most in my life. I often have ongoing thoughts of traveling back in time and changing things (playing the lotto, beating that guy up in school who picked on me) I have thoughts of going on these shopping sprees and maxing all my credit cards out. I don’t want to be a burden on my family any longer and desperately need to get an official DX.

Does anyone know where I can go for free mental health evaluations?

Hogan December 10, 2011 at 11:36 pm

I believe I’m actually being bullied by my wife believe it or not. She would often change moods in seconds, from laughing to screaming very quickly. She would often call me when I was getting close to finishing work demanding & shouting that I come home on time. Unreasonable behavior it was – there was shouting for nothing. We have a nice life & it’s only me providing right now so when she shouts & screams it seems she forgets I’m the only urner & gets me really down. Is this just bullying or I think she may be bipolar ?? Help please

Jacob December 13, 2011 at 1:38 am

I’m not sure. True bipolar consists of a major depressive episode for a few weeks as well as a hypomanic/manic episode for a few weeks. Each of these effecting normal day to day functioning, at least eventually to some degree. It sounds like she is very irritable right now which could be signs of a hypomanic episode possibly.. Something is definitely there though. There could be different factors that may be causing her behavior like stress etc. Either way, regardless of what an official diagnosis is, she has some sort of mood disorder since it’s effecting your marriage. She could probably benefit from therapy, and or medication. That would have to be something to negotiate with her. I don’t know the details of your situation. I have bipolar II though. And I can tell you some of my story to give you a little more perspective. I’m 23 now, but In high school I became hypomanic for 3 months and didn’t realize it. I just thought life was awesome. I was making straight A’s, was very outgoing and confident when before I was pretty introverted. I had a lot of friends. But it started getting a little out of control. I began to curse at teachers and had other behavioral problems because of my over confidence and anger. Later on I started doing drugs a little, not very much though but I’m pretty sure it was a factor. Then bam, one day i had a panic attack and was depressed for 3 years. I was diagnosed right away first with major depression then bipolar II. I took medicine for a year but it didn’t seem to work so I stopped seeing the doctor. I actually didn’t believe in medicine at the time. (mainly because I thought medicine was the only solution when really it’s only part of it) I dropped out of high school the next year, but eventually got a GED and gradually got better. Enough to actually graduate from college. In my last year of college I had another hypomanic episode but realized what was happening this time. It was really bad because I couldn’t sleep for 3 weeks and my mind was just racing. I also felt like I was constantly having profound realizations about the universe, then one day I just snapped and started breaking everything around me. I started passing out because of lack of sleep, but I still couldn’t sleep. Luckily I found some of the anti-anxiety medicine that I had taken before, but had been reluctant to use. I took some and was able to sleep for a few hours. After that I just decided to see a psychiatrist and started taking medicine again. It actually helps me a lot this time. I can sleep again and my mood is much more stable. I’m so thankful for it. With bipolar usually more than one medicine is taken, a mood stabilizer and an anti psychotic. I take Lamictal, Seroquel, and Klonopin. In addition to that I try to live a healthy lifestyle with diet and exercise and doing productive activities with others. Slight changes in my good habits can easily effect my mood, just not as much as before.

me December 11, 2011 at 6:47 pm

I got a 48 my mom and grandma have it, im 15 yrs old id
k what to do.

jennifer December 12, 2011 at 6:56 am

To the ones who are talking about living or being in a relationship with someone who they think is bipolar- ya’ll are being a bit judgemental. You dont understand how it is unless your the one having these feelings. Its not something you wish for and its not something you can control. You dont know which feelings you can trust because you know a lot of times you are led astray. You may say “Why dont they get help?” but its because of people like you saying all these cruel things like its something we can control that makes people not want to talk about it or admit they have it. Trust me, no one wants to feel the way you do when you have bipolarism. Its a disease just like cancer or anything like that. You have to give them support and say that its ok, your not a freak, you just have to get treatment like any other sickness.

jennifer December 12, 2011 at 7:24 am

Im 22 and pretty sure Im bipolar. The test said I was a 55. Im always either in a high point, having all the confidence in the world, having all these big ideas that I just know I can do or Im in a low, depressed state where I think Im ugly and fat and stupid and I know I cant do anything right. Im always either high or low. I watched some videos from when I was younger and I was like 6 at Christmas and I was showing the same symptoms, switching from whining to crazy happy in just a second. Ive had the urge to die before and always wish I would get cancer or something. I am a Christian and believe in God, so dying doesnt scare me. I want to get out of this world and go to Heaven so I can stop feeling like this but I believe God has put everyone here for a purpose and when I have fulfilled that purpose, God will take me home. Thats why I would never commit suicide. Its so hard because my feelings are always changing and I never know which ones to trust. I can never trust myself. I am engaged to a super sweet man, who takes care of me (seriously, he cooks, cleans, buys me things and loves me so much) and I’m so mean to him. I can be nice and lovey dovey but then I will be bossy and tell him what to do. I dont have a sex drive at all and have never had the big O before. I feel so bad to deprive him of sex, I will just lay there and let him get his. I love him so much, he is my best friend. I am most scared to have children because I dont want to pass this to them. I dont know how to live with this, I have given everything to God to take care of so I can deal day to day but I want to be happy. I want to have a normal life. I dont want to admit what I have because I dont want people to call me crazy. I want to have a career and a family and I feel like if people think Im bipolar they will think Im crazy and uncapable of doing anything. I dont want to be locked up in a hospital. Sometimes I get really angry that I have this disease. To be “crazy” is the worst thing you could be labeled I think. I owe it to my fiance and future children to get better but I dont have health insurance and Im scared to take medicine for it anyway because I dont want to be spaced out. I dont know why I have this. It makes me sad to see the teenagers on here who are facing this disease alone. What do you do when the world sees you as crazy?

lisa December 16, 2011 at 8:57 am

Hi im a 31yr old female and my mother has had diagnosed bi polar all my life, and also alcohol associated epilepsy. Anyone who is unfortunate to be diagnosed with Bipolar the individual can be extremely selfish irrational and also at times very unpredictable. I know this and at times could have shut the door on my own mother because she doesnt know how draining she herself can be at times. But believe me get your loved one to the doctor because the right medication can help it wont cure but can help the individual. My mother has submitted herself to hospital for periods of rest throughout the yrs norm when stopped taking her medication. she has been physically and verbally aggressive towards me but once the storms over and it may take a while, she calms and can see the clouds through the trees. Ive came to understand that I will never have the mother daughter relationship that others have but that’s not her fault and its her bipolar but I must admit I miss it just at certain times i.e birthdays just to have moments of appreciation but anyway lol. So yes if your loved one is hot then cold, extremely irrational and emotional then ecstatic and at times very selfish or if you cant approach the subject get some leaflets and leave them sitting where they can see them because it wont get better without help. And there is loads of help out there for those that want it.

martin mason December 16, 2011 at 11:56 pm

I take 200ml of benzos and 200ml of amytryplin a day i feel low i feel high and just wonder will this ever end i feel for every sufferer i have so much ro say i could txt all year all i want is help but just keep gettin fobbed off with more pills whats it all about ive read some sad storys on this site i feel for us all keep fightin the fight wanna chat e mail me would love a 1 2 1 with another sufferer i live in hope martin

Bipolar ism Crames December 19, 2011 at 12:04 am

Sometimes i love everything and then 5 seconds later I smash lamps and other things that break. I also hate pickles no matter what mood I’m In.

Laura December 19, 2011 at 7:28 am

Sue, I hope and pray your finding the answers your needing. I wish I could give some assistance to your dilemma. I’m afraid I can’t. I can give you maybe some insight from a different angle. My mother was married to my dad for 48 years. They/she raised two kids during that time. I was the youngest of the two. For years I lived with the swinging of his moods. I would get told that everything was fine etc as the behavior always got swept under the rug. The infidelity, being cussed out, etc. In my brain that created the clear message that if everything was okay, then it had to be me that was the problem. Look I could go on for days about therapist, self help books, yada yada yada. However, it’s a mute point except to say it took years to do all of the damage by my bipolar dad. It almost killed more than once. You have to love your child….. You must protect. Get her away from the chance of being harmed. An attorney can request phys evals……. Do what you can but don’t look back like my mom did and have to admit what she took part in. Best of luck to you. You will be in my prayers. :-)

imjustme December 20, 2011 at 1:19 am

Im 15 and over the summer, i started getting really irritated with my best friend. One day, (assuming she had enough of my on and off pissyness), she kind of snapped on me and asked me why i was being so touchy about things. I always thought i was just a really sensitive person up untill my best friend snapped on me and suggested maybe i wasnt just sensitive and there was more to it… my mom and my brother have bipolar… but i just dont know how to tell my mom… my friends are also saying its getting progressivly worse (my ups and downs)

Ak-47gun December 20, 2011 at 2:05 am

I think my friend is biolar but I had to make i was’nt so I did’nt look a d###

Samantha December 20, 2011 at 6:26 am

Im 19 years old and feel I have bipolar disorder. (I scored 49) my mothers extremely bipolar as is my sister and are medicated for it. I take Zoloft but if I skip a couple days, I get bad depressed and just want to die. The only thing that keeps me going is my 7 month old son. I’m very sexual with my husband…. But he’s just starting to loose intrest in me and it upsets me a lot. I don’t know what to do I feel out of control and I wish there were a rehab for people like me. :(

Livy December 21, 2011 at 4:15 am

I have been visiting a number of sites on bi-polar and decided to try and journal my behavior for the last two months in which I have been very depressed and at times have had suicidal thoughts, which is what prompted me to research this disorder . In observing myself today I realized I had many search windows open when I was to be focusing on my job search. I get so easily distracted! I had 3 email accts; a job website and its separate window for application; 2 bipolar websites and 3 other sites open all at once going back and forth. Then I observed that I had checked out 13 books from the library; none of which I have been able to focus on enough to finish! I also realized this is pretty normal for me. I have entertained the notion that I am bi-polar before but may have been in denial? I am scared at this behavior now. Anyone with any thoughts on this? It isn’t normal is it?

sammy December 25, 2011 at 11:56 pm

Livy, I am.not going.to.tell you if you are normal or.not from.the little.bit that you said. . .but. .as someone who has been suicidal since my teens I would like to say this. Please tell someone that loves you and that you trust how you are thinking suicidal thoughts – having someone know that this is how you feel is a necessity. I had an experience of ending up on a.psych ward I would not recommend going there or to an ER that might put you there.Those places “can be” very scary. Journaling and researching is a great start to find the right answers. Best of luck

jesse. December 21, 2011 at 9:04 am

I’m 21 years old and every quiz Ive taken says I’m bipolar, I have not seen a doctor or anything, I’m afraid of this, I’m only 21 and I all these racing thoughts are killing me! I constantly try and figure out what everyone around me is thinking, I’m always so observant to the smallest details no one pays attention to. I hate this, I need help, an to make things worse I can’t talk to anyone about how I feel. I have a gf and I love her so much but I’m such a jerk sometimes I hate it!! she’s my everything but this disease is killing me! why can’t I just be happy /:

Tiffany S December 22, 2011 at 1:52 am

I took this test for myself and then I re-took it again to diagnose my 18 year old son.

Mine came back with Anxiety/depression, which I am happily medicated for, my son’s came back with Bi-Polar. I called and made an appointment with a counselor and then I expect to be referred to a therapist of sorts for my son and I. My son has been diagnosed with ADHD, OCD, ODD, etc… He has been medicated off and on throughout his life and now I find that he is smoking marijuana. He is also very moody and has no respect for his parents and has no problem robbing you blind and denying it.

How do I know if this is just a rebellious child (since the age of 7) or does he really have greater issues and possibly been misdiagnosed this entire time? I guess I’m afraid I’ll go to another therapist and they will miss diagnose him again…. I wonder if it would help to provide several perspectives from other reletives and friends of how they see him?
Thanks
TS

brandee December 26, 2011 at 9:42 am

I’ve been diagnosed and thought it’d be interesting to take this quiz, scored a 52! I knew I was bipolar when I realized I would spend nights feeling as though I were literally on drugs , I wouldn’t, no couldn’t sleep for days. And I would have PLENTY of energy still. Then the next day id be sitting in my room crying for hours, feeling worse than I ever thought I possibly could, cutting myself, and thinking of ways to end my life. I went through these phases on and off between months, weeks, and when I was stressed I switched every hour. I knew I need to get help when I lashed out and hit my bestfriend for no reason. I was loosing everyone around me and becoming someone I didn’t know. The first thing I thought when I got diagnosed was, if these feelings aren’t REALLY mine. Then who am I? Who am I without this illness, and the second thing was am I really going to have to deal with this for the rest of my life ? No one will ever love me, I will never get married, I don’t know what I’m going to do if I have to feel this pain for the rest of my life… These are still thoughts I’m struggling with. One of the hardest things about this illness is helping your loved ones understand, because no matter what you say, if you’re lashing out on someone they’re not thinking “remember she has bipolar she doesn’t mean it”, they’re thinking this person is a b*tches and I’m not going to take it. So it is very hard, especially because I cannot control the way I feel or my actions… And the guilt of it all after is unbelievable. I always am ahsamed…

To anyone staying strong by their partner when they have bp. You are soo amazing, I can tell you right now that they are soo grateful, with being of their soul. It’s the hardest thing to do, but please stick through it! They need you there.

I struggle with my life every single day. When it’s bad it’s really bad, and its hard to remember that it won’t always be this way. I know someday I will be truly happy, and anyone struggling with bp I hope you stick with your life too. No matter how you feel I promise you are beautiful, and you will not feel this way forever ! I really could write a book on this topic.. but I’m going to end it now :)

My name is Brandee, I’m 15 years old, a student, and hoping to be an inspiration to people sturggling with bipolar someday !

brandee December 26, 2011 at 9:45 am

By the way, I’m sorry for the HORRIBLE grammar. I’m typing this on my phone and its a pain in the butt >:(

Jaze December 26, 2011 at 10:05 pm

Hey. Bi-polar; very common in teens and young adults. I’m in med school trying to be a physiatrist. Many people believe that are at great risk for bipolar disorder and many people have it. It is so unfortunate that as I was in high school people were mistaken with this disorder. They used it as a joke or as a sign of insecurity. Well, I took this test and scored 33. I was surprised a bit and then had realized the truth. I think I might have this disorder. I have learned to deal with it. I just think, I will be ok. I honestly can cope with it. Just hope everyone out there is fine.

Emzyz December 27, 2011 at 11:04 pm

plz someone E-mail me and tell me if im bipolar! i need to know!!!!! i have suicide thoughts, i sometimes harm myself, i once broke a whole entire glass frame but dont worry i picked it up :/
and i cry so much. i get so sad and its so overwhelming i dont know wut to do! ive taken all these tests and they all say that im bi polar! but i need to know if these tests rnt scams im not sure if they are. i need you guys to tell me. heres my e-mail:

ninjagirle1@yahoo.com

please email as soon as possible if i am bipolar i need to see a doctor immeadiatly!!!

Maureen Horsefield December 27, 2011 at 11:44 pm

I haven’t been diagnosed with bip0lar and haven’t seen anyone about it, but i have wondered if i am bipolar for a while.

Hattie December 28, 2011 at 12:01 pm

I got 54, I find that I am really hyer half the time, and then the other half I am crying and think I’m awful and everythings going down the drain. I also often get angry or irritated with people when they have done nothing. I am 15 years old. Help me?

Dan December 29, 2011 at 6:06 pm

I’m just hoping it’s my age that’s dong this, I’m 17. Close enough to 18 I guess?

Eric December 29, 2011 at 10:02 pm

Well i did this test (to check the authenticity) and it diagnosed me with a bipolar spectrum disorder, which is exactly what the doctors say i have. So, yeah, i would say this test is pretty accurate.

mad man paul December 31, 2011 at 8:37 am

Hello there people

I am Paul and 22 years old sadly I knew I was bipolar years ago thought il take the test and I scored 60 yeah!! Points mean prizes .. I will not go in to much info but you people sound like your doing your best and I will you the best out of life but for me bipolar is apart of my life that if I could remove it I will but I have it very bad one min I’m very happy very out going talk to much and can’t stop touching people the next very down lose all the friends you have on a high I feel every one out to hurt me I shout swear at 4am and have been taking away by police many a time but min if you ask me something I am the kindest person ever I will give u loads of money help in anyway the next min hour day on a downer il stab you I’m not joking I have been cought by police running down road naked with a sword chasing one on il scared to go out iv been nightclubbing but I can change so quick if a stranger asked for money il give it them then next downer il fight and people don’t take to this kindly so I just stay away from people sometimes I run away when phone rings or if the door goes I order take away online using card but on high I ask the guy in for cup of tea and can’t stop chatting when on a downer I tell then to leave it at the door and when no one there I go get it I have been know to rub my blood and shit all on my walls u telling that to police when at 4am ur shouting with blood shit all over urself and walls some times my room is so clean I clean it for hours aday the downer u can’t see the floor its dark smell and I can’t get out of bed for weeks so tried I sleep for 23hours aday I have always been like this in school I never hardly went till some worker said she is taking on my case and told a child sometime that no child should hear she didn’t ask me why I didn’t go school or why I was so tried she just asked me if I loved my mum and said if u don’t go school your go to care your mum will go prison and your never see her again now how can that be right so I do not won’t to see anyone that so called to help me as they all won’t to stab me in the back sometimes I can spend 6months and up before I go outside my front door no I do not drink I do not smoke I do not do drugs and I spend I can spend like $60 on takeway for me and myself and only eat $10 I buy lots of shit I don’t need then I have downers where I don’t spend a cent have have lots of money and in a high I spend it on shit and don’t have money for stuff I need I can be on a high and shower 2 times aday or on a downer once a month so do you really wanna know what Hell is like come live my life sometimes I laugh so hard over the smallest of things the next I smash up my house over the smallest of things I do not wish to have any more girlfriends as it is no life to live with no women should stick by a guy with bipolar for years and years coz she has to its a hard thing to see someone live with bipolar so be better off moving on and living life without fear as they don’t know if ur change in a sec to smash up the house and its Hell to live with someone like that its like your walking on eggs all day I do not wish to have any childen as they will see the mad stuff I do if there not put into care I find it hard to look after myself with not having girlfriends or kids and I will never wish to have any kid to go though a live like I have been living anyway thanks for reading this is a bit of info what’s its like living with someone who when on a downer is really on a downer ok last true story it can get cold where I live and I’m fat not going lie had window open but was still hot so in the middle of the night I took my whole bedroom out side in the back yard my bed my bed room rug my bed side table and I slept there .. messed up how one min I can shave me hair on head in two lines and dye then messed up colours and go down town and joke with everyone the next cry like a baby not going out side as I think every one is being paid to hunt me down and kill me messed up anit it ok that’s a true story about my time with bipolar if you wanna ask me anything please feel to ask away .you can see I’m on a bit of a talking mood if I wasn’t il be happy to glass ur face not that I don’t like you its just my messed up brain I feel your out to hurt me so my first thought is to hurt first ask stuff later and letters from the post I hate bad news I feel sick I rush to the loo I shake I cry just over something like a letter life with bipolar is sad at times but others I’m the soul of the party a nutter that don’t fear anything that can make lots of friends in mins the next snap and lose everything on one downer .. my life written by Paul living with bipolar ok people don’t forget it you wanna know anything ask away please don’t be shy

Naomi January 2, 2012 at 12:12 am

Seems to be I’m bipolar, I have been trying to figure out what was wrong with me and I know it wasn’t just my character. I caused a massive fight between me 2 sisters and my dad, its me against them and the other way around, I don’t blame them for being angry at me. I blame them for not believing me, they say that if I don’t show my disorder outside to classmates, well they can go right. Ahead and ask any of them if I have had those random mood swings, and if I’m irritated easily, everyone would say yes. I’m seeing the doctor soon and I’m doing a blood test. The main thing that just hurts is the fact that I have no one, if my family don’t believe, who can I talk to. I might aswell die -_- (scored 50/60)

Naomi January 2, 2012 at 12:16 am

I also left out the fact that my left fore arm is covered in cuts, all cuz of anger (I am 16)

keri January 4, 2012 at 5:41 pm

Naomi, there is absolutely no need for you to die. Yes, i understand exactly what you are going through. My best friend had the same problems. Her mom was kicked out cuz shes bipolar, and her dad blames her mom for everything. For a long time, she resorted to cutting herself, too. You can always talk to your friends, or even a teacher. M, my mom, and my vice principal helped her to move on. Every now and then, she still has meltdowns, but we help her through them. Naomi, i know that there is someone out there who cares and who will listen.

kelly January 3, 2012 at 1:45 am

I think my husband has bipolar. How can I get him to go to a pyschiatrist without him freaking out? I can’t take his mood swings anymore.

COURT1 January 4, 2012 at 6:55 pm

Try to not use those terms. With someone as hostile as I am I hattttte when people make it out that if I don’t get help they’re going to be gone. Or leave me. Support is the number one thing that anyone can give to anyone bipolar. I have been bipolar for as long as I can remember. I have two small boys at home and my sons favorite line to me is “mommy don’t cry no more. ” and its not that I don’t want help, its I feel so alone sometimes. And then I try and get the help I need and nobody wants to help. Illinois state doesn’t fund anything anymore.. so basically I can go do group therapy but to see a psycharist or a therapist one on one..no way. It’s bullshit.. maybe if they stopped giving all these illegal aliens free housing, and food between link and Wic. All these fucking illegals are ruining it for the true Americans and us citizens that need the help. What is it going to take me truly hurting myself before any serious mental health facility wants to help me? WTF ILLINOIS?

chelsea January 3, 2012 at 9:19 am

Well I. Scored a 60 on this quiz I really do think I am bipolar

Amy January 3, 2012 at 8:28 pm

I scored 41 on this test and i really do think i have bipolar.

Megan January 3, 2012 at 9:10 pm

I scored a 39 on this test. I have often questioned if I’ve been bipolar or if I’m suffering the effects of a traumatic childhood. I have a counselor that I have seen for sometime; she has been helpful and a relief. Coming to terms with your behavior is an awakening experience; I did not realize how much of my life had passed how little I could recollect. Now, I have moments of recollection, however I feel scared confronting the memories and letting go of the anger towards those who took advantage of me and my fears. The anger and rebellious behavior protected me and kept me from feeling anything good. Deep down inside something told me I did not deserve to have those feelings.

keri January 4, 2012 at 5:34 pm

Sometimes even others say i might be bipolar

COURT1 January 4, 2012 at 7:01 pm

And as much as I know people I love ARE there for me my disorder just really Messes with my head. It’s hard to explain to anyone who doesn’t deal with this disorder on a daily basis. I am a manic bipolar. And a manic depressant. My fiance has tried everything he can to help me. He’s wrote the state letters and the news stations letters. I just don’t know what to do anymore!!

jamie lance January 4, 2012 at 11:43 pm

I have always felt different than all the others in this world, right from an early age. I feel i have had to live with people not meeting my expectations or requirements which has lead to extream frustration with life in general. I just thought i was special in someway, more highly tuned,observant and extreamly upfront at times and that i just haven’t found my true place in life yet. After having lived in over 17 different locations by aged 28 and working in as many jobs, i have finally ended up homeless living in a hostal. This is where i began to take a good hard look at myself and wether or not it was me or the others(so to speak) that was to blame for my lack off sucsess in life. I attended many counsiling sessions through my local G.P. and began to talk about all my life issues to get to the heart of the problem. I found peace with all my family issues even tho i still have no contact with my mother(at the mo), but still felt the same feelings about new events that should arrise. Then one of the guys in the hostal said to me one day “you are suffering from bipolar my friend” after bearing witness to one of my more regular episodes of outburst, about life. I talked to my support worker whom put me on to the research pages on the net and i was amazed at what i read. I took the online test and scored very highly but this time didn’t feel ashamed to answer the questions honestly and even went as far as to give personal examples of my actions to which these questions fit. Untill then my aunt and best friend kept saying that “everyone is like that” and i always reply with this…”yes..we all experiance these problems in life but as we are all different we all deal with the problems differently, and you’s obviously feel you don’t have the same issue in dealing with problems…where as i do”. I am so glad to see that im not alone in my thoughts and that at last i may be nearing the answer to my fustrations with life. I am currently trying to get an assessment on my mental health to get a clear diagnosis and will let you all know how i got on and any advice i can give to others. BTW….loool…..i love the straight-up-ness of your comments on GOD……THE SOONER WE REALISE I KEY IS WITHIN AND NOT EXTERNAL, THE FASTER WE FIND PEACE. Switch ch7 V2.

brianna January 5, 2012 at 8:16 am

Im 12 nd have bipolar since i was 7

lilly January 5, 2012 at 7:12 pm

i got a 49 on my test. i already know i am bipolar. my boyfriend is bipolar. he is 19 and im 17. it is not easy to put up with. we have tried everything but nothing seems to really work.

Chloe January 5, 2012 at 10:10 pm

Im 17 yrs old and suffer with bad Anxiety and Panick attacks, ive suffered from this for about 3 years now. I have looked online for Bi-polar symptoms and i do think that i do have it, i havent spoken to my mum about it because it makes her really upset! ive had enough of feeling so low all the time.

katie January 6, 2012 at 1:23 am

oh my god
i’m 14
and i’ve had my friends, friends parents and my mum say i’m bi polar
i have crazy mood swings
i go from high as a kite to suicidal in a second
and i self harm
you might look at me and my image and say i’m emo
and that self harm is emo
but thats fucking bull shit
i just did this test and it said i’m on the spectrum for bipolar
shittt

Ted January 6, 2012 at 5:01 am

I scored a 48. I don’t know… i often keep fantasizing about weird arguments/debates with other people going through my head, and i often fantasize about conversations and “being the hero” and helping people progress socially. I also have trouble sleeping because the fantasies often run through my head constantly, and i keep telling myself “sleep sleep sleep”, and after 3-4 hours, i still haven’t slept. I don’t understand why i keep doing this. It keeps holding me back from doing things that are progressive. I also lack exercise, i also tend to have a messy room. Just recently, i started rearranging my room with one of my closest friends, and i feel like it might of helped, but i still have trouble with these things going through my head. I want to escape this shell i’m going through. Every time i have these fantasies, i just immediately start to realize that i’ve been fantasizing for about 3-4 hours straight without being active. Whenever i go out with a couple of buddies, these “fantasies” appears just sometimes, but not often, but whenever i go out by myself, it just makes me fear of what i want to buy at stores and stuff. i don’t know what to do. Its like every thing i learn from the past, i always have a feeling that someone is going to argue against the things that i have learned, and i always fantasize about coming up with rebuttal. I guess that’s the best way to put it. I feel too defensive. Help me please. I am willing to do whatever it takes to get this bipolar thing handled!

Misty February 21, 2012 at 3:52 am

Ted, your story sounds all too familiar! We are both there… Or at least I was until last week. I am going to a therapist. But the most helpful thing for me was to get on Geodon. Totally night and day! I feel like I have my life back! Good luck

Dawwn January 6, 2012 at 3:07 pm

I have been with my husband for 12 years. About 1 year into our marriage, I realized there was a problem. Granted, as we were both starting over, our life and living condidtions weren’t ideal, and I figured that played a part in the mood swings.
I didn’t know that much about bipolar disorder back then, but after doing some online research, I’m convinced that he has this.
We have moved 23 times in the last 11 years. He quits jobs at the drop of a hat. He is angry all the time at the world, other people that have things he doesn’t and at just being alive in general.
Then we have the highs.. He buys things he really wants and is happy (I mean like giddy type of happy) even though we can’t afford them.
He has never been violent to me or the children when he goes into his rages, but I have to wonder if that will eventually happen.
I can usually tell when he has an episode coming on and try my best to help him through it.
I have spoken to him about it and his response is “I’m not crazy.” I have tried to explain to him that is a chemical imbalance and that he needs to see a doctor so that he can get back INTO balance to no avail.
When we fight, he says the most horrible things. And when we aren’t fighting, he can be the kindest man ever. He snaps at me or the kids just randomly, when he was laughing just five minutes before. I tell him things and he changes them in his head and then we will end up arguing about what was said at all. Our older children know that there is something wrong and they chalk it up to dad being in one of his moods.
He tends to isolate us from family and friends, even so much as moving us 1000 miles away from home on more than one occasion. He refuses to do anything in the lines of social activity that involves people outside of our family here at home. I have changed a lot in the last 12 years. I find myself making excuses to my family about why he changes jobs so often and about the constant moving. I lie to them. I can’t tell them that he came home and said pack up everything, we are moving out west. So I lie, make them think it was agreed to by both of us and that we just didn’t tell anyone until we were ready to go. I never interact with any of my friends or family anymore because I don’t want him to go into an episode of anger and start laying on the guilt trips. My mood is different now. I am a happy, never go to bed mad, don’t sweat the small stuff type of person… or, well I was at one time. I find myself shying away from friends and family so I don’t have to answer questions. It’s just easier. And in doing so, I have now isolated myself from the rest of the world.
Honestly, I am at the end of my rope, my knot is almost undone. I love him and just want him to be happy. To smile and enjoy the little things in life. I want MY life back as well. I want my husband back, the one I fell in love with. He has gotten worse through the years and I am finding out that I can no longer see the episodes coming on and head them off at the pass, as it were.
The last fight we had, he did acknowledge that there is a problem. He said to me, “I’m sorry for all the pain I’ve caused and all the disrespectful things I’ve said and done since we first met. I didn’t ask for it to be like this or for to be the way that I am. I just wasn’t ever meant to be happy in my life. This is the way it’s always been.”
I guess, it’s a start, and I hope and pray, everyday, that he will finally talk to someone.
My eight year old put on his Christmas list to Santa, that he wanted dad to not yell at mom so much and for him to be in a good mood on Christmas. It broke my heart.
I’m at a loss here. I don’t know what else to do.

Abz January 22, 2012 at 2:09 pm

This sounds like my fiancé I don’t no what to do because he is pushing me away his moods also snap really quick

Diana January 8, 2012 at 1:37 am

I think Im bipolar and have had a feeling of something being wrong with me for a very long time. I dont have insurance and I dont know what to do about seeing a doctor. Im tired of feeling this way and all the mood swings are driving me insaine. Please if anyone knows what todo I would really appritiate any advice.

Arnaldo January 8, 2012 at 5:46 am

Hi diana! Idk if ur goverment have treatment centers like APS! They are mostly free services, the only thing you have to cost are the medicine… Idk, ask ur doctor for $$$ help

Michael January 10, 2012 at 4:38 pm

Diane, o totally get where your coming from. I have been fighting depression since I was around 20. I was a heavy drug user during my teens and 20′s. I thought this was the reason for my feelings
At 30 I finally got off all of y drug use. It took till I was 40 to go to a doctor and explain my feelings. Right away she told me to seek help. I also have bad back issues and had an operation in 1991. During and to this day I have been getting treatments from back doctor. They treat my depression also but should have listen to my physician and talked to a professional. But with lack of funds and embarrassment I choose not to. But its getting worse every year. PLEASE SEEK HELP FROM A PROFESSIONAL. Do some research on line to educate yourself. Take it from someone who knows what your going through before getting to where I’m at. It comes and goes with my financial status. That’s my trigger to this disease.

Arnaldo January 8, 2012 at 5:43 am

Hi! Im 16 years old and i think im bipolar, I went to a hospital and stayed at emotional stability room for young adults because my mom noticed tht i was being sad a lot and then she saw tht i was self-harming by cutting my wrist and also there where days tht i ate a lot like a pig and the next day i didnt eat a thing and so on. Right now im in a treatment and i only been in 2 visits with my psichiatrist and im taking Zoloft, Vistaril, and Rispeldal. I took this test because even though im medicaded, i feel a little like the same and my friends say that i some times out of no where get sad, angry, anxious, and i get carried away when i laugh! I want to show the results to my mom but idk how… any advice to my situation? Please help me!

jm January 8, 2012 at 5:04 pm

My score 55 im 25 years old maried with 2 children its easy to get help hard on an ego my wife and i are 5 years together unfortunatly separation is the only way i was told to better my family and my life i must first better my self i know it sounds selfish but think about it i do my family no good yelling snapping being angry all the time im adhd ptsd and a real possibility of polar im lucky enough to see the harm im doing children are effected in every way for any of u on the other end of this u can only do so much then its up to you to take care of you and your baby/s

cuatro January 9, 2012 at 1:29 am

There is no god so that proves how ignorant you are

Angela January 11, 2012 at 10:40 pm

I’m 29 years old with 4 children including a set of 2 year old twins as if that’s not difficult in it’s self my Dr. told me that he thinks I have PTSD and Bi-polar disorder which is not at all a shock to me I was molested multiple times by my uncles friends and I have a 9 year old son that’s a product of rape my close aunt was also killed by a serial killer which affected my life in a major way I was one of the last people to see her alive so being interview by detectives at such a young age was terrifying do having PTSD was not a surprise. Really possibly being Bi-polar isn’t either I scored a 56 on the test. My mood swings are so out of control that I spend most of my time hiding in the bathroom crying. Living inside my own head has been years of torture sometimes I’m so low I feel like a zombie and sometimes I feel so high that I just want to clean and cook and go out and do great things. My behavior is so out of control I’ve hurt tons of people and never understood why I was doing the things that I was doing. Recently I left my four children with their father for 2 months and went off and married some guy that I barely know. Why do people that suffer from Bi-polar disorder do these things why do they hurt other people so bad? I want nothing more than to be able to control myself and just be happy. I’ve searched for happiness for so long I’m tired of sitting in the bathroom, feeling depressed and alone.

Angela January 11, 2012 at 10:54 pm

And today I completely freaked out and destroyed my closet doors completely kicked them in and 10 minutes later I was coloring with my daughter what is wrong with me? I feel so lost and I feel like I’m getting worse everyday somedays I feel like if I didn’t have my children I would just kill myself the only reason I haven’t is because I never want them to grow up thinking that I didn’t love them or it was their fault.

tasha9929 January 12, 2012 at 12:47 am

I think my 20 year old son has bipolar. How can I convince him to go the doctor. He is so hard to live with and threatens suicide all the time. I am so scared for him and I myself am so tired of his mood swings.

CINTYA VENEGAS January 12, 2012 at 3:55 am

THESE ARE VERY STUPID QUESTIONS! THIS APPLIES TO ANYONE! THERE ARE TIMES WHEN EVERYONE WANTS TO BE ALONE BECAUSE THEY NEED TO CLEAR THEIR MIND….THERE ARE TIMES WHEN A PERSON CAN GET ANGRY BEYOND ALL REASON BECAUSE PEOPLE PROVOKE THEM, IT DOESNT MEAN THAT YOURE BIPOLAR, IT JUST MEANS THAT YOUHAVE EMOTIONS!!! BASICALLY THESE ARE QUESTIONS THAT APPLY TO ANY NORMAL NON BIPOLAR PERSON!!!!! ITS RIDICULOUS!

da January 14, 2012 at 9:04 pm

Who has believed our message
and to whom has the arm of the LORD been revealed?
2 He grew up before him like a tender shoot,
and like a root out of dry ground.
He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him,
nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.
3 He was despised and rejected by mankind,
a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.
Like one from whom people hide their faces
he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.

4 Surely he took up our pain
and bore our suffering,
yet we considered him punished by God,
stricken by him, and afflicted.
5 But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was on him,
and by his wounds we are healed.
6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
each of us has turned to our own way;
and the LORD has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.

7 He was oppressed and afflicted,
yet he did not open his mouth;
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
and as a sheep before its shearers is silent,
so he did not open his mouth.
8 By oppression[a] and judgment he was taken away.
Yet who of his generation protested?
For he was cut off from the land of the living;
for the transgression of my people he was punished.[b]
9 He was assigned a grave with the wicked,
and with the rich in his death,
though he had done no violence,
nor was any deceit in his mouth.

Clare January 15, 2012 at 1:44 pm

Im 23 years old…suffer from depression…not suicidal…When I was at secondary school suffered from severe bullying…started smoking weed alot when i was 13, quit when i was 15-16…took a while to get over that..have never been a really confident/sociable peron, struggle to interact with people. actually people annoy me for no reason, i want to tell them to F**K off…never been in a physical fight…but always have thoughts of beating people up etc…i cant sleep for ages at night because my brain is on overdrive thinking about the W*****S at school and thinking what I wish i would of done…some days im soooo happy then within a split second my head is F****D for no reason at all…hate it, ruining my life…I am used to my own company and have to be constantly on the go doing something…cant sit down cos i’d go mad at being bored…have no idea is this is bipolar or not…am gonna try and see my doc and see what he thinks……….

liza redpath January 15, 2012 at 11:40 pm

majorty of these questions have described how i feel on a daily basis but i keep being told its just depression .. but all these questions describe perfectly how i am feeliing xx

Sarah January 16, 2012 at 3:03 pm

Good grief folks!! Here’s my opinion, quick & to the point & not meant to cause offence. ‘god’ (if you believe in such things) will NOT diagnose, treat, cure or help your mental illness. He only exists in YOUR HEAD, peoples, where the confused stuff is anyway. I say STOP using ‘god’ completely right now & get yourself well. YOU (and drugs & medical professionals) will do
It. Absolutely. And think on…what sort of ‘merciful god’ would inflict mental illness on any one of his ‘children/flock’ etc? If I believed in him I’d be calling him all the bad names under thr sun and hanging up my cross/bible/whatever. So. Your ‘god’ gave this to you? Nice job! Why?!! Answers on a postcard please.

Cassis January 19, 2012 at 3:37 am

What about acute paranoia, delusions and hallucinations? Could these feature in Cyclothymia? I don’t typically experience usual hypomanic symptoms of excessive spending, drinking or risk taking but I’m pretty sure I could be cyclothymic. Last year I kept on hearing a voice in my head telling me to go climb on that building and jump of it. My thoughts raced so fast that it appeared to be whiz of white noize rather than actual words. Sometimes when I go to bed I cannot get to sleep even though I feel tired. This is when a manic phrase comes. When I feel depressed I sleep into the evening and I cannot budge off the sofa. Taking a shower leaves me exhausted, and I feel very anxious and sometimes I engage in ocd tendencies.

Abz January 22, 2012 at 2:06 pm

I think my fiancé has this his moods snap so easily and he can get very nasty 2wards me and tryes 2 push me and his lil girl(not mine) away. Just yesterday he was fine we was having a nice romantic walk then started snapping saying nasty stuff and still is now. I don’t believe wot he says I do believe he has bipolar he showing all signs what do I do? Someone please help I don’t wanna lose him and scared for him thank you

Nina January 23, 2012 at 9:39 pm

I am only 13 years old but i am scared i have some form of depression or disorder, there have been very eventfull moments in my life but right now i am at a very low stage where i have been crying a lot, It might just be my teenage hormones but i do seem to get very happy and free and awake and i can have very low times in which i cry and cry for ages and have debated how i would kill my self many a time. I also feel like everyone is against me and i very very guilty. WHen i was seven years old a close friend of mine died which could have started my strange lows and highs but i just really wanted to tell my doctor or my parents of friends but i am to scared. On the test i recieved 42 and i have done other tests for depression in which i have had high results. I am very worried and don’t want to blow things out of proportion but i just needed to tell someone so i can go to the doctors and if the symptoms are right then get some help.

Nina January 23, 2012 at 9:42 pm

I have also a mum who has struggled with cancer and a brother who has quite bad anger management and also another brother who has severe autism. My family have been through a lot of horrible situations including my cousin being on meds to help her with depression.

rosie frances January 29, 2012 at 7:35 pm

im rosie and im 16. a year and a half ago i got diagnosed with depression. i am on tablets but to be honest. they dont help. i honestly have lost all hope to get better. infact, i feel worse. i just took this test and it said ‘bipolar spectrum disorder’. to be honest, i have my sucspitions of bipolar. you people who are like me are the only people i can talk to orpour my feelings out too. my mam suffers from depression also and i think my dad doesnt no what to do with me anymore. i got put to a specialist because i was hearing voices and cutting but they take so long to sort things. i always wonder if i will last any longer.

Dizzy February 15, 2012 at 2:24 am

Hey Rosie I am also 16 and very depressed, and I got a 53 on the bipolar quiz. My parents try to hide the fact theat they are depressed, but I notice things like that, like their anti depressants or my dads poorly concealed smoking habit (i think he also does cocaine, although ive been trying my best to deny it). I think he is bipolar too. I both of my parents separately that i am severely depressed about 5 months ago TWICE and its like they forgot.(Sorry to ramble on but I have never really opened up to someone). I’ve tried self-medicating with various drugs, but the break from reality is always only a few hours and the happiness lasts 2-3 days at best. I’ve tried cutting my wrists, but that didn’t work(in fact it only made things worse because of the fact that i have been able to hide the cuts for over 2 weeks now without anyone noticing). Anyway once again sorry for rambling but if you want to open up I’m more than happy to read what you have to say

sapphire January 30, 2012 at 7:47 pm

I have been suffering from anxiet attacks, insomnia, and depression for the past ten years. Antidepressants and sleeping pills don’t work. Now my doctor tells me I maybe bipolar. But I don’t get hyper like I heard that goes along with bipolar. I do have days when just a couple of hours of sleep can last me for a couple of days. But I am not hyper just can’t sleep. Please help.

Nee-Nee February 3, 2012 at 12:04 am

I just took this test and got a 38 I been trying 2 figure out what the hell was wrong with me for the longest of time. I can go from extremely happy 2 thinking why am I alive it’s very frustrating I even snap on family and friends some times for no reason my appetite goes up and down sometimes I want to eat sometimes I don’t it’s kind of scary not knowing what wrong with you of why you feel the way you do. Oh by the way I’m 17 years old.

Daniel February 3, 2012 at 2:26 pm

All i have to say is, if we are all god’s children, then what made jesus so special? Also, the bible is more of a fairy tale than facts of the human creation. The big bang theory has been proven to be a true possibility rather than some “higher being” creating the entire world in just 7 days. Plus if god loved us so much then why do we have children dying in the streets and so much hate in the world? You religious assholes who try to “convert” people hate people of other faiths. you are supposed to accept everyone into your heart and forgive them of their “sins” rather than ask god to smite them. So fuck off god. Fuck off jesus. And fuck off to all of you religious bastards. Try to follow buddism and how they act. They don’t force people to believe in their religion. Isn’t that what “GOD” wanted?

Ashlee February 3, 2012 at 10:26 pm

I feel this might be something im battling but im scared to start any sort of treatment because at times I cannot afford medicine or doctors… If I start treatment and connot afford to continue will I feel worse? I dont think I can handle feeling any worse.

jodie February 15, 2012 at 9:05 am

i think to do nothing is worse than doing what you can hun. Just my personal opinion but even if its speaking to a mental health professional over the phone, they can at least give you educated advice. do you really want advice from some of the people posting crap on here?

allright February 4, 2012 at 5:30 am

i have just scored a 43 in this and a 38 in the depression test but with my girlfriend dying in my arms i have cut myself off from the outside world for 3 years. can someone help me? i put on a brave face 99.9% of the time and there is 1 person i know who i can speak truly to but if i do speak, i will have a severe emotional breakdown and i need help

sara February 4, 2012 at 6:14 am

I have just taken this test,with a result of 56. Even after being admitted into a mental ward and being diagnosed with bipolar disorder and auditory hallucinations, it is difficult for me to accept the fact that i have this problem. My journey to recovery for leading a normal life has just begun. To all those out there that are in relationships and have caused much despair to your partners, please get help. I did not realize how much i have affected others around me by my mood swings and suicidal attempts. To anyone reading this that feels that they might have bipolar disorder, please try and talk to a health care professional and get some help. You will meet others as I have that share the same illnesses and find the support and care that you need. If you are uncertain of having bipolar, remember that bipolar disorder can look different in every individual, some people maybe more hyper and active during their manic episodes, whilst others might experience a longer period of depression. Medication is a part of treating bipolar disorder as well as therapy sessions. You will come to realize that you actually do need help when you take that leap of faith. If you are having financial difficulties and are worried about seeking help, sometimes just by talking to a professional, they may be able to help you in more ways than you think. There are many community resources and different ways to get help. Do it as a favour to yourself and for the people around you that care for you.

Araceli February 4, 2012 at 10:15 pm

I got a 37 which means i probably am bipolar but it might just be ups and downs. im actually feeling really down right now, and i hate how my boyfriend has to deal with me. But he just doesnt leave me which makes our relationship really strong, and that lets me know that he loves me

muxikplaygrround February 8, 2012 at 10:34 pm

all this insane amount of people standing together to protest against religious obsession makes my day!! A few years ago …and after coming from a latin VERY RELIGIOUS well catholic country …. all I heard was how amazing it was god cause of their prayers their effing socker team won?!! face palm…… I am higly respectful of dogmas …but tired of being overwhelmed by IT!! use to be like a nazi thing where we the “EYES WIDE OPEN ONES” where look upon like the sprouts of satan…the other imaginary god. I love you respect your believes but is good to know I AM NOT ALONE ANYMORE

confusedd February 9, 2012 at 12:16 am

I have always been aware that something isn’t right with my frame of mind, one minute I’m the life and soul of the party and the next minute I feel like sitting in my room and crying. I am almost 20 now and have been feeling this way since about the age of 15. I was never happy with myself and started feeling really low about myself. The past few years have got worse though and I’m embarrassed and ashamed to admit that I have considered suicide and hurt myself. I am also very unpredictable. Some days I am also really paranoid and find it hard to adjust to social situiations and even go in certain shops. I’ve always been told that I am too nice but sometimes I get so angry I feel like been selfish to my friends for no reason. To outsiders I look completely normal and a typical 19 year old girl who wants to have fun and Whenever I have tried to talk to anyone I have constantly been told that it’s a phase or that I need to pull myself together becuase some people would love to have my life. I have an amazing family, friends and I have a great social life, but I can’t snap out of these “phases”. It is starting to tire me out and I feel like things will only get worse over time….Thoughts??

Dizzy February 15, 2012 at 2:01 am

I would really appreciate some advice. I thought I was severely depressed for about a year (I’m 16 btw) but im pretty sure im bipolar now. I don’t enjoy my time being “up” because I spend the whole time fearing the inevitable “down”. About 4-5 months ago I told both of my parents alone that I was depressed twice each, and I guess they forgot. Please I don’t know where to turn, I have no one to talk to, and there’s not a snowball’s chance in hell that I will put my self out there again if i will just be ignored. I’ve thought of suicide, but really im too much of a pussy to go through with it (or anything else for that matter). Please help, my grades in school are dropping and i feel like that’s the only thing I have left. Also don’t be so mean to the religious people, calling them assholes makes you a bigger asshole. On the flipside of that, telling people that God will get them through this really is not very helpful at all (sorry).

jodie February 15, 2012 at 9:03 am

has anyone else noticed how negative nearly every single post is on here? i thought this was somewhere you could put up your thoughts and feelings about this potentially serious disorder, without feeling like the world is judging you?
for those who have been open and put up a comment on here expecting help or just to get it out, then good shit i hope you get something positive from it and those who speak about irrelevant bullshit like whether or not god is real (we are all free beings, entitled to our own opinions are we not?), you need to go and find something better with your time.

Danielle February 16, 2012 at 9:34 am

How do I go to my doctors and say I think I have bipolar?? I know he will say it is somethin g else because I am not a doctor so how do I know. I was on antidepressants and I felt they made me worse?? I’m really struggling at the minuet and I just don’t know who to talk to I have a good family and friends but I don’t feel like I can talk to them!! Please give me any suggestions xx

ian February 16, 2012 at 12:13 pm

im an alcholic who’s pretty confused …. i scored highly on the bipolar questionaire for the last thirty years my life has been pretty unbearable … yet at the end it says it may just be normal life problems ….. im confused ….. maybe i need to get help … mixed messages

lezaan van wyk February 17, 2012 at 4:17 pm

I’m 18 and been with ths for years my family thnk its a joke and I’m losing friends over this I get aggressive and hostile with everyone around me even with myself.. They dnt think its a illness just me being a teen I scored 59.. I dnt know what I’m gonna do..

Football lover February 17, 2012 at 9:02 pm

Will u all shut up if u keep blaming god or saying u survived by yourselfs!!! I’m on 14 an I just found out I’m bipolar !! I’m also adopted an have ADHD an moving from my city I grew up since I was adopted at age three so shut up an deal with it!!

Football lover February 17, 2012 at 9:09 pm

Will u all shut up if u keep blaming god or saying u survived by yourselfs!!! I’m 14 an I just found out I’m bipolar !! I’m also adopted an have ADHD an moving from my city I grew up since I was adopted at age three so shut up an deal with it!!

casie February 17, 2012 at 9:16 pm

if your not bipolar you wont understand so stop judging and start considering. Bipolar people cant help the way they feel, and as far as im concerned they dont even understand why the feel the way they do themselves. Do any of us really? Sometimes im happy, sometimes im sad. Thats normal. What isnt normal is sometimes im excessively happy idk what to do with myself and one lil thing can set off my temper and i will become so angry that i become sad, and again… idk what to do with myself. im confused and dont understand anything. i scored a 56. ive never been tested for it, ive mentioned it to my doctors parents and therapist and NO ON

casie February 17, 2012 at 9:17 pm

NO ONE has helped* i hope that one day there will be a way for people to take other peoples feelings more seriously, idk what it takes but thats why im determines to figure it out for myself and help others in my future. The thing is, how am i supposed to help others when i cant even get help myself…..

Misty February 19, 2012 at 3:58 am

I just got diagnosed this week with bipolar. I am 33 and have been on antidepressants for over 10 yrs. Have always felt different. I went to a new dr and I wanted more Xanax for my non stop anxiety. He was very straight forward. Wonderful dr. Told me bipolar manifests itself as anxiety. He started me on Geodon and I have noticed a difference right away. The conversations in my head are gone and so is the anxiety. Was kind of in denial until I read these stories. Please find help. Life is worth it!

Keike February 20, 2012 at 10:14 pm

Please search out help from NAMI they can help you and educate you on mental Illiness. There is help. Look for Family to Family course for support.